katelovesorange

its late in the day now. just after supper. its been a pretty calm day. we did a couple of yard sales . i found some jars and an old atlas thats falling apart and i can use in my art. we went to the thrift shop and i dropped off a bag of clothes. then i bought a summer skirt. i had a good look around. people in the store where quiet and most patient with the staff and others. it was good to see. we then dropped off some pots to a friend who is doing a small plant business. she said she can really use them. i was glad we picked them up . they where from a lady who is moving to the yukon to be with her kids. we then went to no frills and i got a piece of meat for brent for dinner. i had soup , homemade carrot soup from last fall, it was good.

when i was at the grocery store i found some discounted veg, green beans and mushrooms. will can those up tomorrow. i have enough for a few jars. like i said to brent, i will can food for as long as my body lets me do it. after that is we use what we have till its gone and then we sell the jars.

i found some lace at the thrift shop too. i can use that in my journals and note cards. i really enjoy making those when i am up for it. i have a letter to get in the mail this week.

i started sorting all the house paperwork into yearly binders. i need more binders. i figure i will do about 12 years worth and then after that toss the old paper work from 12 years before. i used as many old binders as i had. but i need about 4 more. guess i can get them from the dollar store next week.

i still need to find some white craft paint. no one has any right now. i have never seen craft areas so empty. i guess the pandemic hits everything.

pain levels are not bad today. i did pretty good for so much walking. work is going to be a different story. see what happens when the time comes.

i am hoping we have sold 2 more birds. the lady says she wants them for next weekend. we shall see if yes comes to get them .

speaking of birds i better go feed mine....see you all tomorrow...

good morning. a sunny start to the day and its supposed to be warm again too. pain levels are high this morning so not sure how this day will go but will do my best to get things done.

brent wanted to do a picnic again tomorrow. i would say sure no problem if i was not the one doing all the work to get ready. i would rather just go out for lunch and maybe some thrift shopping.

i stepped on the scale yesterday and i have lost about 3 more pounds. i think its because i am not eating so late at night. i am also not eating when i dont want too or if i feel sick. though i try and cook for brent as much as i can, i still dont like to cook anymore. i am so sure if it was just me in the house the cupboards would be full of oats , soup and crackers and ginger ale and not much more.

its break time. i got some work done in the sunroom . some more plants transplanted and watered. it is alot neater now and i tossed some stuff too. next comes the task of reorganizing the shelf for all my craft supplies. being as i am now working downstairs i had to move alot of things down to the sunroom with no real placement in order yet. i suspect some of the things on the shelf can be tossed too.

so its stir fry tonight for dinner. alot of prep but only takes 10 min to cook. i think i will make rice. best thing i ever bought was a rice cooker. i never burn the rice and its easy to set up. i should look up recipes for rice pudding too....since i am making puddings.

time for a snack . i will be back later.

i have hit the wall energy wise. i started to change the cups again and packed the old ones and washed the new ones. while waiting for them to dry i thought i would sit and watch a show on pbs. i fell asleep typing. i dont know how that is even possible? time to get dinner on the go . see you all tomorrow...

its a late entry today. i just got busy and almost forgot. i was trying to get some things done before it got too hot.

i was up late as well. i think its the heat. its so hot in the bedroom. it makes you not want to do anything.

i did make pizza for dinner. it turned out good and i didnt burn it. brent has dinner long after me. he will be down for dinner shortly. then i will go up for a shower.

i actually got some art done today. just some painting on a notecard before it got too hot again. the card will be going to alberta to a penpal. its been a long time since i did this type of painting. i did notice however that my hands are shaking more than i remember. its part of the fibro. then i picked up the barbie dress i started last fall for my granddaughter and thought i would try and finish it any way. maybe i can give it away. so many things remind me of how empty my days are, like not being able to see the grandkids.

i am so sure they would love the bunny. but i doubt i will ever know. i keep hoping they ask about me and will come and see me on their own someday.

i made banana pudding from scratch this morning and not from a box. it turned out really good. i think next time i will use the immersion blender. it will mix it better and make sure the banana is ground up too. but i liked it warm right out of the pot. it was like muffins right out of the oven. yummy.

the cats and rabbit are not doing much moving around . so i think its hot in here too.

i am going to close here for now and see you all tomorrow.....

good afternoon. well shopping is done and put away. short list this week. i also made a food donation to the food bank. i figure i have been very lucky this year. even though i have issues with my eye etc. the doctors have been able to fix it and i can still see.

shopping went well. not many lineups and no grumpy people around. i was in and out as fast as possible. i have dinner planned for tomorrow and dinner tonight for brent is left overs from last night. so no cooking for me today.

i just washed the floors and thought i would work on this entry while the floors are drying. i need to get a few more things done before i stop for the day. brent got alot of the dishes done for me which is great.

later...its after 6 and i got a few things done and started the pizza sauce for tomorrow. i dont think i will eat much tonight as its too hot. maybe some toast later.

my brain is pretty foggy and i cant think in a straight line will close here for now and see you all tomorrow.

well the rains have finally come. i was up at 330 closing windows while it thundered. the rain explains why my shoulder is killing me. the rain is supposed to clear out today .

i am getting ready for my dr appt today. i have to remember to ask for a drs note to go back to work. i am not eager to go back. with everything that is going on in the world now. i suffer from IBS as well so when i need a bathroom i need it right away. i wonder how many are open if they are open . i cant depend on a client all the time to let me use their bathroom. also with my fibro i have alot of pain and when the pain level is high i get sick. what would a client think of me throwing up at their house. guess we will find out.

brent wants to go to the appt with me. i am ok with that but he also wants to go for breakfast. i just want to go to the dr and a couple of errands and come home. maybe if i feel up for it a drive through lunch. i dont like going out for breakfast. i dont like eggs much. i would rather go out for dinner.

i had a shower when i got up to get ready for my appt. i was thinking when i got my hair cut the lady who cut my hair told me to get a conditioner for my hair. as i fluff it out now, it feels great right now. it feels very soft. i didnt tell her i use dawn dish soap on my hair. it gets it clean and soft. i dont like my hair to feel greasy.

back from the dr now . dr says it has healed really well. i go back for another check in nov. and didnt i forget the back to work note. will have to call the office later. i got my errands done and letters mailed. we didnt go out for breakfast. not enough time as he had to be back home for work.

so i will do grocery shopping tomorrow. its going to be just as hot tomorrow as today. i am not looking for ward to it. this summer has been the worst for me. the heat never used to bother me but since the fibro has come to light it really does now.

so i made dinner. meatloaf , potatoes and broccoli. there should be enough left over for tomorrow. that way i wont have to cook after going shopping. i also made some lemon curd. it turned out so good i love it. will need to add eggs to the shopping list.

i am so tired now. being at its so hot today its making me very tired. i am going to close here for now and get a drink of water. see you all tomorrow....

good morning. i am vertical so that is a good thing. i slept ok about 7 hours. so not bad for someone in cronic pain. i have been up since about 7 and took my meds. just waiting for them to kick in and then start work. we are supposed to get rain today but the sun is out now. so no idea what will happen later.

no real plans today except to clean aviary and make dinner. the cats are pacing so there is something in the air. the rabbit is looking for his morning escape. he will have to wait until i am done in the back room.

back again. aviary is done and rabbit is out. brent has gone out to get gas for the lawn mower. he has been out for almost 2 hours.

i have no idea what to make for dinner. i guess i will have to head to the basement before my shower and find something. it wont take long to defrost today as its so warm. the ceiling fan has been going for days. all the cats are under it now. i would imagine they are very warm too. i will have to round up the bunny soon.

my pain level is pretty good right now and energy level is not bad. so will try and get some more things done before i crash.

had my shower and rounded up the bunny and fed him. got some dishes done and had lunch. brent brought some subs home with him. its from a local business. they where good . i saved the other half for dinner. i still have to round up more birds in the back room and damp mop the floor again but i am doing pretty good for a monday.

later..... well art was a bust today. its too hot in the sunroom. for a day that was supposed to rain its awful sunny. i dont know if i should believe the weather channel or not anymore. i did some glueing and sewing inside and i think that will be it for today.

even the cats are not laying on me today. so it really must be hot.

i am gonna close for today and go get a glass of water.

see you all tomorrow.....

a very gloomy start to the day. its 8am now and i had to turn a light on just to see what am doing. at least i was not up at 430 am again. it has been raining off and on all night. we are supposed to get rain all day today , tomorrow and tues. i wont be putting out laundry like i wanted today.

i better head down to the freezer and find something for dinner. i am feeling better than yesterday right this minute, but an hour from now who knows. i know brent likes the big dinners with meat and potatoes. i cant be bothered. i think men like those big dinners because they dont have to cook everyday. they dont have to plan and organize dinners. believe me if i could i would order in for him. least my kitchen would stay reasonably clean. for me right now to make dinner and use pots and pans and then have to do clean up takes so much energy. just the thought of it makes my brain hurt. how do i explain to someone just the thought of cooking makes me want to run away. i am not even sure how much canning i will be doing this year. we should probably use up what i have canned last year.

i want to do some art today being as its so dull and i wont be going outside. i miss doing crafts with the grandkids. it was so much fun. i like to think they had fun too. wonder if they remember making things with me. its been a year since i last saw them. i try and not think of them too much as it hurts too much.

brent keeps asking if i am ok. somedays i want to scream no i am not ok. my kids dont talk to me , i dont see my grandkids and i dont know if i ever will again. i have no family to speak of now and no friends. no one to go have coffee with. no one who would even care if i lived or died. lets put it this way if i know i am going to die i better clear out the house first. i dont want some government people coming in and wondering what the hell was wrong with me.

maybe i have too many books.maybe i have too many tea cups. maybe i have too much yarn. maybe i have too many projects on the go. the way i look at it is that these things wont reject me like people do. i am so tired of pretending to be happy all the time.

i have been getting rid of things. one bag at a time. its hard as its like getting rid of a piece of a wall that has been protecting me from things that might hurt me.

this entry is getting pretty heavy time for a break....be back later....

ok back now and the sun is out. go figure. we were supposed to have thunderstorms today. instead we get sun.

brent has gone fishing so i will finish this and then go feed the birds.brent saw one of the surprise babies. nothing he can do about them now. he cant yell at me for it when he didnt even take any eggs when he was supposed to be cleaning the aviary. all he did was lay new paper over the old. what a huge mess to clean up.

it is going to be very warm tomorrow so i have to do the aviary early. then will try and stay cool. its going to be a 37 humidex.

we had dinner and i napped for a bit. i wanted to do something but ran out of steam. least i was not sick.

i am going to try and get some knitting done tonight. it will be too hot tomorrow. there is no where i need to be tomorrow so may just stay upstairs for a while after my shower.

gonna close here for now...see you all tomorrow....

a very early start to the day. i was up at 430 am. my usual time to get up for work. i will be very tired later and may require a nap.

i can never seem to get caught up on dishes. there are always some in the sink. will try and work on it more today. will also have 2 big pots from dinner last night.

the pain level is higher this morning as i didnt sleep well. waiting for pain meds to kick in so i can start to do something other than surf facebook. my hands hurt too much to knit. i want to try and cut some more weeds and grass for the rabbit.

i also need to work on the sunroom. now that most of the plants are gone i can at least box up the pots and sweep the floor.

its the weekend and it will be a day spent at home. i dont like going to the farmers market anymore with all the dogs there. maybe i will go on wed and buy some of the goat cheese.

its going to be a nice day , i guess i should try and get some more laundry out.

somedays it feels like all i do is pick up after brent , just like a toddler. he leaves coffee spills on the counter, clothes all over the house, tools all over the house. he leaves food on the counter and wonders why i get pissed. containers are left open and on the counter, and of course he pees on the seat. sigh.... it seems like such a small thing to just lift the seat. wish i could stand and pee. oh and another thing that really pissed me off is when he built the shelves for all my canning and then put all my jars on the shelves with no sense of order. i hate going to the basement i hate the shelves because of it. i cant find anything . he took the joy out of it for me. i dont understand why he does that.

another stab to the heart by my kid. i tagged him in a post. it was for a roofing job. make a few bucks kinda thing. thought i might get a thank you. all i got was dont tag me in things. guess he wont be chatting with me anytime soon. least i know he has not deleted me off his list.

today was pretty much a write off. i got sick. then i slept for 2 hours. i am feeling ok as long as i dont move around too much. i had some soup for lunch and a ton of crackers. dont think i will be eating dinner. i wanted to get some things done and none of that happened.

i am going to close here for today....see you all tomorrow

its been a rough start to the day. my hands are swollen and my shoulders hurt. i am paying for doing too much yesterday. i always feel like when i can i have to get things done. i am in pain so much that i am always behind in getting some house chores done.

as with anyone with fibro there is always pain somewhere . being as i am in pain with my shoulders and hips today. i became sick. even though i took some pain meds. sometimes its not enough. so with the help of some soda crackers and tea i hope to feel a bit better soon.

i have the lady coming to pick up some plants soon. then i can finish moving the empty pots into the shed. then the trunk goes out to the sunroom and the rabbit goes to the spot where the trunk is. i would rather the rabbit go back in the bird room.

i made spagetti sauce for dinner. i think its going to be a soup night for me. i am not sure i can handle pasta tonight. i didnt even have oatmeal for breakfast, i had cold cereal.

on the bright side i the socks out on the line and another load in the machine. i soaked some whites in TSP. it really helps get alot of the yellowing out of pillowcases and sheets.

i really wanted to spend some time doing art today. maybe tomorrow. its hard to feel inspired to make something when you feel like crap a lot of the time. even then i am not sure anyone will want any of the things i make . i would like to make sure the blankets get to my grandkids at least. at this point would i need a lawyer now? i miss them so much. i wonder every day how they are doing . if they miss me. if they wonder about me.

i am going to go now before i am sick again, see you all tomorrow....

i have been so busy today trying to get as much as possible done today. i am feeling ok so taking advantage of it. its all the heavy chores. tomorrow i have laundry to put out . i changed the bed today and sorted the sheets on the shelf. trying to match them up together. they get messy so fast. got the rabbit cage done. i have also been trying to teach the rabbit that when i shake his food dish i want him to come home and today it worked! so i must be doing something right.

i have no idea what to make for dinner. i am not hungry at all. i would be happy with soup. i dont think brent would be. i have some hummus in the frig too. maybe i will have some fruit later. maybe just a cold plate tonight.

i am still trying to get caught up on dishes. it never ends. i have the canning pot soaking in the sink as a jar broke in the pot. so it really needs to be washed well.

its late now and i still have not posted this. i had soup for dinner. i got a load of socks ready for the line tomorrow. i also wove in all the ends on the 13 pairs of socks i have finished since jan. so i can pick a pair to wear tomorrow if i go out. i also sold some of my baby plants. which is good because i had no idea where to put them in the fall. they are in the sun room right now. the lady will be by to pick them up tomorrow.

time to get ready for bed....see you all tomorrow...