fireworks are a'goin'
not as many being shot off as i expected this evening. they might be waiting for midnight like it is fucking NYE (because let's face it, a lot of Americans are stupid). But nevertheless, i am chillin' bc i no longer have a fucking dog slobbering in my face because he is having a panic attack from explosions outside. All is good in the hood.
I have also been thinking an awful lot about body mods tonight and how (aside from getting my ears pierced/gauged) I am not getting anymore. I have already been over this at length on this blog before so i will not repeat myself (like i tend to do), but, tattoos are expensive af and i simply won't ever be happy with the amt i have, so, i will just not get them anymore. I am deliberately choosing not to drive myself up a wall of “self-improvement” (esp when i am never satisfied with that “improvement”).
I would rather work on easier, more superficial, temporary “body mods” instead (even though they are not actually body mods) such as; a decent haircut, frreshhhh-to-death punker clothes, jewelry, shit like that. Life is simply easier that way.
So, that's about it for now
Be back in a bit!
I feel goooooooood
Because it is going to be a beautiful sunset and life is always good. The “fresh air” that soothed me to sleep last night will not be around tonight because the air is going to be filled with residue from firework smoke this even (and probably for the next 24 hours), so, that is gonna be hella lame.
It turns out that i fixed all the sync issues i had w/ this #blog and Tumblr/Twitter so, horrah! Anyway, I think i am going to teach myself CSS (again).
Be back soon!
Let's get advice
Not from me (LOLOL), i mean I am going to get advice FOR me. I want to enroll in the Matt D'Avella course that he is going to release soon about how to build healthy habits. I really wanna take it, even if it costs $$$. Sounds like a good thing, but, I cannot join his e-mail newsletter for this reason or that because....i don't know why I can't sign up. It won't work on his site, so, I will have to try try again.
I am open to advice on many things and healthy habit forming is always a good thing to get advice on because let's face it, i'm a fucking human and many people form BAD habits or habits they cannot break. Not good.
I would like to do more with this #blog (here, on this platform) and “doing more with it” requires no more time/energy/effort I am putting into it right now (which is a LOT), but, how to....idk exactly. I just want advice. LOL.
Anyway, be back in a bit!
i could seriously nap this whole day away
but not really because i just woke up from a nap and am not tired at all now :/
but i suppose the fireworks will be kinda neat tonight (listening to them, not watching them, fuck that, i'm not 12).
i just know that i am all too happy to chillax in the aprtment and really not do anything today. We “celebrate” Independence Day, but....yeah. I won't go into some dumb political rant. LOL!
be back in a bit!
time for some #punkrock and Mt Dew Livewire
because i am basically sitting here and killing time until the horizon lights up w/ firework displays this eve. I have an enormous tree blocking mmy view outside my window, so i won't see a whole hell of a lot of them, but, some will be visible.
anyway....yeah
A Theory
We live in a hyper-connected world. So hyper-connected, that many people cannot (or will not) fathom a world without social media. Or without WiFi. Or without smartphones. Or without even centralized electricity. Now, I am all for (a couple of) these things, but, with the current level of land-based glacier loss occurring in West Antarctica and soon (all of) Greenland, and the ievitable (scientifically proven) sea level rise of 30+ feet that WILL occur, what makes people think the fucking lights will even turn on once the coasts get swallowed by the ocean? One thing that (almost) all of us take for granted is the ability to heat and cool our homes, preserve our food, heat our bathing water, COOK our food, communicate via telephone (even if it's a landline), and on and on with the use of centralized electricity. These grids of power are interconnected, rely on a nationwide “grid”, and are by no means a force or part of nature, so if a natural disaster strikes (in this case in the form of a mass flooding), why would we assume that this grid will go unscathed?
Here is the theory: when the lights go out, it goes without saying (as scientifically predicted and proven) that many people will die, unfortunately. Some people simply depend immensely on the power system and modern “conveniences” we have in the First World and to go without them is a matter of life and death for those folks. But this is a fact, the theory is that when the “Connected Generation”, the younger millennials, the people who never knew life without an internet connection suddenly realize that the world with which they have no skillset(s) to deal with is suddenly “in-their-face” and demanding their participation in, they could become very flustered with their new-found circumstances. It would be like something out of a comical science fiction magazine, only much more tragc, much more sad, and much more real. I am reminded of the thing I shared earlier about the younger crowd not reacting well to high levels of stress by experiencing crippling anxiety. Well, even a “prepare-for-all” prepper would be flabbergasted if the lights were to go out (because everyone takes at least Netflix for granted, right?), so, what would you (the person reading this) think a late-teen, never-look-up-from-their iDevice, socially inept individual would do? The quick and dirty assumption (or therory) I have is: freak out!
I wish no discomfort for anyone and I wish things of this nature were not a distinct possibility, but they are things that I think about and I feel are worth writing about (if even in a personal, offline journal for my own amusement).
I know this: America is 110% screwed.
I am reading (or read yesterday) a story from Medium that I saved to Pocket titled “Do Americans Know How Much Trouble They Are In?” and I may have mentioned that story here in this Notes Journal already, but it is worth mentioning again because we are in a lot of trouble. At least as far as freedom, democracy, dignity, and civility goes. We have our work cut out for us (us being We The People). I am not too concerned with what happens with our government, in particular, though because it has already (for several administrations) been the most corrupt and evil empire (i use that term quite literally) in the history of the world. Romans don't have shit on us. LOL! This is also a very bad thing as far as karma is concerned but I am not worried about that, either, because I have never been part of the U.S. political system. And anyone who is still humping away at a “brighter future” must go through the dark(er) (est) times w/ the rest of us otherwise they do not deserve that future whatsoever. I, myself, am very optimistic though for more or less a single reason: I have been dirt poor for a very long time and nothing on the horizon is going to change that, so, I feel any “major upheaval” in terms of natural disaster(s), war, famine, etc. would do nothing more in my sphere other than arouse some amusement and adventure. That is a very bold way of putting it, but that is the brass tacks of the situation. What many “mainstreamers” would consider being knocked from off their high horse is nothing, and I mean NOTHING that hasn't already hapened to a smaller (poorer) part of the U.S. population in the 2009 crash. You see, numerous people lost good jobs, good benefits, good economic status, and good lives when the 2009 crash came to be. Then Occupy Wall St happened and it had many ideas behind it that was going to revolutionize the entire political spectrum and ensure that nothing that terrible ever happened again. The only people that do not want to see this government (the Trump administration and the very system of two party politics itself) sink into the ocean of non-existence, are the “status quo” crowd. The mainstreamers. The ones who still have a small semblance of success and prosperity in their lives. Essentially; about the top 15%. The other 85% are suffering miserably! Is that fairness? Absolutely not. But the fairness of the situation is another conversation for another time because corruption in the nations capitol was never designed to be “fair”. So, when our system of government fails, we will then see quite-literally-everyone on the outs as far as economic prosperity is concerned. And then, THEN, maybe once we see a 100% ACKNOWLEDGED and OBVIOUS Depression before our eyes, and everyone starts to participate in community-driven, political(ish) action, THEN we may have an opportunity to recreate a BETTER country that is more sustainable and prosperous for all.
Or maybe we'll go back to the dark ages. I don't know.
here we are
had to fix the sync issues between this blog and other things. i am thinking about how much it sucks to be broke right now because i want to donate to the GoFundMe a friend has going for his wife who passed away recently, and as much as i wanna donate NOW, i will have to wait until next month :(
i am also thinking about possibly publishing some things i wrote in the offline “Notes Journal” onto this blog, but i am not 100% sure about that yet.
anyway, be back in a bit
hey, all!
Boy! Did I get some writing done tonight! I wrong about 3K words (no joke) in just this one night since i gotooted off the Internet (or since the WiFi app stopped working on my phone). It works again now, but i have still been doing a shitload of writing offline (and will continue to do so).
Just thought i'd update y'all on that fact
Black Metal, Coffee, Nicotine, Life
This coffee is sort of bunk. It is Folgers Instant and it tastes like cheap instant coffee (because it is). It is getting the job done and is v bold/strong, but there is no admirable flavor worth remarking upon.
Anyway, I am about to spread the “Rewilding For Repentance” story around the WWW. It's on Medium right now (medium.com/@olearyxyz) (i think that is the link) but, I need to give it some traction here soon. No rush.
I feel good. Vaping rules. Life rules.
Be back in a bit!