Let me start by saying we WILL overcome! We WILL come out WINNERS! WE will never give up! You might take top for a minute Cancer BUT, not for long!

Radiation today was increased a lot! Today’s treatment alone had more side effects than all of last week’s treatments put together! Is it hard? You bet your arse it is BUT, Cancer has NEVER fought TEAM “MICHAEL and PATTY” before! Therefore it’s got no clue what it’s up against! Add ALL of the additional support and ya, WE’VE got this! This is what we always need to remember!

Today was a day like none other! Last week I was able to love Michael through a lot but, today was different! Michael’s radiation was increased by a lot and I knew the moment I saw him! Let me share how I knew! I looked at him and this is what I saw!

The Burn! The agitated state, the anxiety, listening to cries of pain, refusing to eat food, fatigue, major fatigue, headache and complete weakness! Today Treatment really got him, as they said it would!

I’m the “fixer”! I’m the fixer by nature BUT, I can’t fix THAT 👆🏻👆🏻👆🏻! Am I discouraged? Oh you bet BUT, I know it’s not forever so I’m keeping the eye on the prize! Sure I ran around like a crazy wife offering him everything under the sun but, really he just wanted me to stop talking, I was agitating him! The devil disease entered his body and it’s going to take a stronger devil to TAKE IT OUT and yes, HE WILL! ZERO doubt!

He wouldn’t eat. He can’t eat. He’s burning, he’s on fire, his throat is raw and that’s the little stuff. Right? No. It suck’s but, something he must endure to come out on top!

He wanted me to hold him and so I held him. He wanted to cry, I held him longer and reassured him. He’s scared. I’m scared but, I don’t ever let him see me sweat. Sure he’ll read this but, he’s not stupid. He knows how hard it is for me to not be able to fix him! I have to accept it though just like he must accept he’s got the devil disease!

Honestly we knew this was coming but, we didn’t expect it so quickly! He’s finally settled in bed and I’m in mine and I had to write. If I write then I’m not laying here worrying! Keeping my mind busy is so important! Until he calls upon me and then it’s all HIM!

Throw it at us because we WILL ALWAYS look for the rainbow 🌈 and the stars ⭐️ and this is a promise!

No matter how sick my love is tomorrow he will March right in and take that nasty treatment AGAIN because the fight is on! We are fighters and fighters are WINNERS!

If you took the time to read my blog, thank you! This is my outlet! It feels good to JAB MY FINGERS ON THIS KEYBOARD! I appreciate you! I appreciate ALL OF YOU! I’m proud of #TeamMichael and can’t wait until this is OVER but, until then I’m going to love him through it! WAIT! WAIT! WAIT! “WE are going to love him through it”! That’s a promise 🙏🏻♥️

To end this I want us ALL to pray for everyone that’s fighting this horrible disease! It’s brutal but, they’ll all be hero’s in my eye’s! I’m going to say my prayer’s 🙏🏻 Tonight and count my blessings. I’m going to get up tomorrow and still be his biggest cheerleader be we are NOT QUITERS!

We have courage, strength and determination so I guess we’ve already taken many steps in the right direction! Thank you for reading because this is my outlet! I love you all. We love you all ♥️!

WOW! Life has taken some unexpected twist and turns and I’m ready to lay down and cry BUT, I can’t because I’m fighting for someone’s life, my loves! We can’t stop and we won’t stop!

My husband has stage 3 tonsil cancer and needs massive surgey. Our ENT that will perform the 1st Cancer surgey said that he needed dental surgery done 1st and formost! I finally found a dentist that would see Michael...despite the Corona virus pandemic and the news was grim, at best.

Michael found out that he’s lost most of his upper jaw bone and it’s not stong enough to hold the teeth anymore. The whole upper jaw must lose ALL of the teeth! A blow we weren’t expecting! Hey, this is Cancer so why would anything go smooth! Right? Well, it’s certainly met it’s match!

This is a word I’ve heard 37 times as of right now! This word comes from the Oral Surgeons that could possibly perform the dental surgey. It was either “NO”, we don’t take your insurance or “NO”, we just can’t work because of the Corona virus! This is frustrating to say the least BUT, I don’t take “NO” for an answer! I feel our biggest obstacles in life make us much stronger! So we kind of expect to be like Hurcules after all of this!

I truly believe this and I’ve watched my husband breakdown several times today and no, I won’t join him! I can’t. I can’t afford to but, what I will do is love him. I will love him through this ♥️

I want to thank each and everyone of you for JOINING Michael and I in this vicious fight! I just spoke to a Doctor that has set me up with another Doctor. I’m sitting here waiting for his call and thinking about how grateful I am for ALL OF YOU!

I’m going to continue to keep the faith! I’m going to continue to fight the devil and not lay down and cry! I’m going to fight harder, love harder and WE will come out champs at the end! Thank you for being #TeamMichael because we couldn’t do it without ALL OF YOU! I love you ALL ♥️