S2

i hope you never, ever, ever have to feel this.

at the deepest core of who I am, some lights went out, and I can't figure out how to turn them back on.

you absolutely fucking ruined me.

so broken.

destroyed.

I’m used to it.

I’m used to people leaving.

I’m used to being alone.

So just go, leave.

You promised me you'd never be like them.

You promised me everything.

I believed you.

I believed you more than anything else I've ever believed in.

I opened up in a way that I've never done before – not even close. It's so much more than that could ever mean, entering a realm and dimension of intimacy, connection, sacredness, passion, and love that I never knew existed. I never thought it was possible. I wanted us more than anything else in my life – the only thing I really, truly ever wanted.

And just like that, out of nowhere, you wake up and decide to throw me out like trash.

Go ahead, run back to him. I know that's the real reason.

Stupid me. Stupid, stupid, stupid me.

Completely, fully, entirely, indescribably, intensely, totally... destroyed.

Fucking destroyed.