Sometimes
Life hits HARD
too fast to react too strong to take too much to bear and I have to stop and rest
When I do
I realize I wasn't ready
Life was worse
than I thought it'd be
It's so easy
to become jaded
to assume
Life will always be
this bad
Sometimes
Life surprises me
it's soft and calming, gentle and kind, warm and loving
Life is looking out for me
I realize
Life was better
than I thought it'd be
It's so hard
to take Life
one day at a time
But I still have
those moments of kindness
to remind me
That Life isn't always as bad
As I thought it'd be
Through ups and downs,
problems and solutions
love and loss
We promised we'd stay together
Our friends drifted away
but we stayed together
We found our safe spaces
We kept on smiling
There was no stopping us
I worked hard for you
Harder than I really could
But it didn't stop me
I was in love with you
You filled my heart
with joy and love
By touching my hand
By smiling your beautiful smile
By just telling me
how much you loved me
Sitting at a picnic table
We made promises to each other
That we'd always be together
That we would work through our problems
That we would never stop loving one another
What happened to those promises?
What happened to I love you?
What happened to all of our dreams?
What happened to forever?
I know you can't hear me
But I want to tell you
What lies ahead for you
For us
People won't understand you
They'll label you as troublesome
They'll keep telling you to try harder
They'll make you angry
because they think it's funny
You'll twist yourself into a bizarre shape
Not you, not anyone
A perversion of what you think others want
Never quite what you want to be
You're going to get tricked and betrayed
Hurt and abused
You'll end up feeling so hopelessly alone
You're going to want to give up so many times
Before you finally see what you've been missing
You're going to find the person inside you
That you will love with all your heart
A person you will proudly show on your outside
every day, without reservation
It's going to take a lot of pain
A lot of loss, a lot of heartbreak
But one day, you'll know acceptance
You'll know belonging
You will hear your voice and love it
You will see the real you in the mirror
And finally be able to say
Without reservation or doubt