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I feel disgusted.

Here is an extraordinary example of projective identification.

First, the abuser attacks.

Then, the victim reacts to the attack by talking about the abusers behavior with other people.

Then, the abuser turns around and ask “Why do you talk trash about me?”

Extraordinary, because most conflict in real life does not involve direct violence, but subtle aggression. Which makes your behavior of talking/venting to others that someone is mean to you, could be seen as your own projection, because you don't have evidence for their aggression. But here you have it.

This is the Western version of “You should listen to grandpa because he is super old”. Idiot.

Seeing conservatives crumble and try to reorganize their moral theories as nationalism is getting in the way. This is what happens when your identity relies on a country, which is an object that doesn’t talk back to you.

There are certain kinds of losers who move to more modern countries, instead of leaning to ride the metro and stand in lines like me, they feel inferior to the local. But they try to act like they totally fit in, are all equal, and in absolute happiness in the new environment. And pass the inferiority to their home countries.

The sign of such people is that they never seem to spend time to have fun at school, at relationships with the new possibilities they have. But spend too much time on “activism” on countries they left 10 years ago and are nothing like when they were there anymore. Certainly best time to do it because no one around can audit their narrative now.

I might not even be allergic to seafood.

I ate that seafood soup during my probation time, so maybe, I was allergic to probation. And we were too poor growing up so we never had seafood even though the beach was nearby.

I know this sounds stupid. But when I hang out with some hidden malevolent people in one month and a half, I felt stomach ache for that whole month and a half. I never had stomach ache before or after that time. And when I knew someone ass kissing, I felt irritated and on edge all the time. That's the feeling of they themdoing something behind my back without having evidence.

And then I know you. And I haven't had any symptoms, just normal like when I am alone.

The Nobel lady should’ve watched ancient Chinese dramas. The ruthless kings never trust the kiss ass.

I don’t think grandma and grandpa can open the jars anyway.

I was just wanting to see my options, not going to buy right away anyway. I’m thinking buying the canned water for parents, grandma and grandpa. But my parents get an extra pack of jars. They never tried these things. It’s more like soup than water.

The bird’s nest store closed today so I bought a new sleeveless sweater for myself instead. I also bought some new tea to try tomorrow.