thaison

It’s super hot today. Don’t forget to keep yourself hydrated.

Why do I always want to cry by the end of the day when I didn't do enough work?

I definitely like someone who reads a lot. But that because we might have something in common. I use a lot of scientific/technical terms as references in my jokes, so my normal friends don't understand.

Then I go online and I see people pushing others to read. A reading activity to a normal person is a hobby preference. But to narcissistic person, it is a symbol of high intellect and intelligence. Such a turn-off. I don't want to associate myself with these people. I mean, have you seen so much crap getting published these days? The last time I went to a bookstore, I had to contain myself from so much rage.

Okay reading books sometimes can make you more intellectual, but that would be the result of what you get from it until the very end. Many books make you dumber too. Publishing is for profit, meaning they need to the markets first before they even write anything. How much of them is pure intellectual pursuit, how much of them is purely for profit? It's a mix like with any other job.

I said before that narcissistic people can only see you as a collection of your favorite books because they are not very much interested in how you connect yourself with a book or a song. They care about the status that comes along with it.

If your intention is to expand your world, you can find just as much truth from reading blogs, watching TV shows, talking to people (I don't). But if your intention is narcissism, you can read a whole library, memorize all the quotes and think they're yours. Your worldview from your own thoughts is still shallow.

I'm gonna sleep early today. Could pass out any second now. So I just want to say in advance that see you again tomorrow.

Paranoid often brags about how they are great at reading body language and who are liars based on minimal information. And that makes it a superpower and no one can ever take advantage of them!!!

I, however, think it's easy to be paranoid. I also think it's easy to trust blindly. And I always think you can only use what people have explicitly said against them, not how you infer it.

The real superpower is when entering a new situation without full knowledge, that you have enough optimism to open yourself to new people and new experiences, but also have enough courage to bear the consequences of making a wrong decision.

I know for a fact that it's inedible. Just pure bitter.

The inedible fruits keep dropping off at super high speeds lately it's dangerous just walking under the trees.

I don’t remember if I told you about Chilly so I might tell you again.

He is a Tesco toy with the embroidery “2006” under his foot.

When I was 5 and went on a ride along with my mom to collect debt from all over the town, I saw the kid of that one family had a bear who sang songs when you slapped it butts. Since I loved music so much, I asked my mom to buy me the exact same toy. When I was 15, my mom decided that I was too mature to have stuffed toys and she threw away the bear with the other toys. I didn’t agree either that the toys should be taken away or that I was mature, but I still went along with it. Later I felt sad.

So in 2016, when I was lurking around the flea market in Budapest, I saw that it was exactly 10 years later from the day the snowman was released. I knew it would be a similar story. I like stuffed animals and stuffed veggies, but I don’t buy them, because they take too much space. But I always carried the snowman with me.

You have sincere eyes.

I never had a birthday party. I didn't get any presents either. One time, my parents drove me to a Christmas show where there was Santa giving children presents. I was hoping I would get one too. But then I found out he only gave the kids in the first row. That's how I knew Santa was a fraud since 5!

Though when I grew up a bit, school friends would give me presents. I like practical things and most of the time it was not even something I could use.