I'm reading this boy's writing, who is around my age. It's getting to the part where his whole life was deep in depression of neglected from family and abused from friends. Everywhere he looks, he is met with aggression from other people. It's so sad when his friends didn't even ask about his new car. And also, one time, his parents didn't even remember his birthday!
Okay I'm buying a new camera. And it was a hassle because after ordering the body camera, I found out I needed to buy a new lens too. Since the world has moved on to mirrorless cameras, and the one I had hung on to till yesterday was a DSLR of 2011.
I think I should buy a new expensive toy later when my finance is more secure. Though I'm not buying the newest and hardly the most expensive model. But since that time someone asked me to be a leader, I think maybe I should make a graceful transition to a directing role that I have always wanted. I don't want to be a junior forever. And because I have no employees, it would just be me trying to direct myself. Okay maybe my dad too. So I count half the cost of the camera as a business expense.
The other half is that I heard this one is good at bokeh. I love bokeh. It feels nostalgic. And I intend to save many memories ahead.
I just prepped for my next 5 breakfasts. So I don't have to worry about waking up at 3am anymore.
Actually I like fruits with solid textures and super sour taste like green mango dipped into spicy shrimp paste. But I'm not allowed to eat that anymore.
I'm having melon for the day. It keeps me hydrated. I think you need some more nicknames. I will think about it.
See you again tomorrow.
The melon I picked was the worst. So I decided to outsource the picking-melon task again.
Nothing happened. I was just reading some very bad writing.
I'm very proud of my confrontation skills. My sister said not everyone can do it. I always left people a note, wrote them a song, told them in front of all the students, how and why I didn't like them and my ideal solutions to suspend the relationships. I figured time is expensive and everyone would like to maximize their potential with the resources they have. Having clear answers and stopping clinging to relationships no longer working open up new opportunities and good outcomes. Even with all that, I won't ever talk to borderline to resolve conflicts, in the past or any new may occur, because it's futile. And my mom agreed with me too.
Who in the hell is saying being truthful doesn't matter?
It does when you are a normal person who knows that you are also capable of lying. But when you think you have no vice then I don't want to talk to you, ever.
Borderline spends half a day every day crying about how the cruelty in the world is too harsh for their soft-boiled heart. And all night every night crying about how all the friends and the families just go no contact and refuse to talk to them for no reason.
Imagine you have arguments with your sibling, every time you do, the sibling says either “No I wasn't arguing”, or “You're arguing, I'm not”, how long is it gonna last before you stop talking to your sibling, simply nothing ever gets resolved? Instead of practicing conflict resolution, like a normal person? Like sometimes it's your fault, sometimes it's mine, here's how to move forward,... There are so many opportunities to understand each other. You would rather spend all that time dodging any aggression from your part.
Now you know why borderline “journalists” keep proposing “solutions” for real-world problems with the mindset of a child. They are a child in conflict resolution.
But unlike a child who mostly bluffs out of their ass to get our of troubles. A child who has less life experience to see themselves in different situations. They know what they SAY NOW is NOT what they ALREADY DID or ARE DOING. So, in addition to having a “naive” worldview (or as they think proudly as moral, honorable, and truthful), they also have PARANOIA and they will always SELF-SABOTAGE close relationships.