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Goodnight tutor.

Here is a story for today:

So, at first, the narrative came from the right. You know how it is. It's all your fault and you should be ashamed for being less capable than others. They also made some very creepy ads too. Which, however, resonates to some degree, especially the part where they stalk their crushes.

So the kids grew up and compared notes. People with higher IQ and lower socioeconomics might present differently therefore did not get diagnoses as kids. “Lived experience” was a term thrown around that time.

Since one behavior from different people can communicate different things, they started to trash CBT and behaviorism in general. CBT is terrible but I think their homework checklists can substitute for quizzes if your newspaper subscription doesn't include one. Behaviorism is lame and we should hate it. However, I thought the opposite of behaviorism is to think twice before making judgments about someone and to be curious always. However, they thought differently.

(Okay it's bed time so I'll leave part 2 for another day.

Turns out I drank coffee too late in the afternoon so I'm not sleepy at all.)

Saw it as an opportunity, several academics in social psychology and philosophy soon made it a niche for their careers. Since it's academics, it went with the normal routine, intersectionality. And it's super convenient. Because you can make sense of the whole universe, let alone the mind of another person. All from your own comfort home. Many people already did it. You can do it too!

Talking about behaviorism. Turned out they had no intention of understanding another person, or even themselves. When they rejected behaviorism, they didn't mean to reject a mindset, they meant to replace it with a different set of behaviorism in their favor. That's why they built the narrative of hyperempathy, social justice warriors and super morality.

So you see now the discussions are much less about social deficit issues, which was the main problem of all, and mostly about personality traits. Because it resonates with everyone. And conveniently all those good traits require you to deny the bad parts of yourself. They are splitting. And splitting feel good, but they don't get better. And they also invite irrelavant people who don't want to get better into the group as well, as long as they have fun splitting together.

Hehe.

Found out several interesting pieces but I'll save it for later.

We talked about it multiple times, and my friends all agreed that kid belonged in prison.

In 9th grade, when he came up with a new batch of tasty rumors and spread it right in front of me, I remember describing it to someone else: “But he acts like he totally believes it's the truth”.

So you know how I feel about people denying their aggression to the point of being extremely paranoid. They are prone to making false accusations and can destroy others, many times with audiences cheering them on too.

I had to ask other people a lot to explain many events. Because my sister was the actual one studied politics, and my dad listened to the news all day. And it would make doing research much easier if I didn't have to constantly look up which country belonged to which continent.

I was more invested in looking down on people with bad opinions. Remember when they thought encouraging people not to leave a dangerous situation and stay instead to protect their historical homeland made them extremely empathetic and not at all narcissistic for considering others as an extension of themselves and their ideology?

I made great kimchi fried rice today.

The tells of who motivated by which, is how realistically they view themselves.

Camouflaging is when they can’t integrate love and hate in themselves. Sounds strange for someone who can. But you spend years explaining to some people and they can repeat what you say and understand logically and still can’t apply, you know how severe it is.

Since they can’t integrate, they feel the need to hide traits that contradict the persona they build. If they build themselves as an empathetic person, they hide all hate. If they build themselves as helpful person, they high selfishness.

“He ♥ he ♥ he” because you didn’t even want to hide your sadism. So seemed like you’re fine with being perceived as a normal person. I didn’t care that much if the opinion was accurate at the time. And to be frank, I was on the opposite direction at first and then lost interest because everyone from all sides annoyed me.

But I don’t think you cared that much about being right. I think it was people being taken advantage of for profit and ideologies.

Writing before you learn “social skills” is great. Also after you learn to undo all those “skills” successfully. What makes writing in your 20s cringe is you try to be yourself while aware of all the stereotypes, social norms others can misinterpret what you write. So you feel the need to cover all bases and it simply doesn't work.

Don't know what humility elsewhere is, but they called me arrogant since 8th grade. Probably all those times they said “You're great” they hoped I say back “You're better”.