Elias

Today when I met my father for the first time since my return from Norway I told him about what I think is the most important thing I learned during this time:

The ability to consciously regulate the intensity of my emotions.

I just had a funny experience with my mother's cat. He was eating and slightly disturbed by some of the noises I was making. So I looked back at him, blinked with both eyes, and then with only one, to tell him that it's ok to trust me, that I don't mean him harm.

Looking back at the past few months and reflecting on what it was that facilitated the diverse and intense experiences I had, I see one central theme:

Resistance

Quite an interesting software.

It's likely that fear has an influence on some of my actions, but at the same time I feel very stable. It feels like there is nothing that could break me.

I'm sorry for blocking your call earlier today. I know it's probably not a big deal and talking about it pure noise. But it's interesting to me because I'm not sure who made this decision. Was it me or was it my fear?

I have only one concern:

I don't want to spend my time overthinking, so I don't. This might be a mistake because I'm missing out on second-order effects. In my own life, this is hard enough. But I think I'm still not walking into a trap.

It is interesting that Co-Star told you today to

Find the middle path.

while it told me that

Muddying the water makes it seem deep.

Is finding the switch for the dark mode in write.as – soo much better. Just joking, but yeah, I really appreciate it.