Elias

For some reason I was ready to go into the world earlier than usual. I had grown quite well and apparently both me and my mother's body agreed. The birth was easy and I was doing fine, my weight was ok, I was breathing normally, but still, as the hospital in Dieburg I was born in was a rather small one (it was closed a few years ago) the doctors decided to bring me to the next larger hospital in Darmstadt, just in case.

I have to admit, this place where apparently my posts also end up now, it fascinates me. There is a lot of randomness happening, but it's not hard to find thoughts that are easy to relate with.

Yesterday, the water supply to our office froze. Suddenly, we couldn't flush the toilet anymore, we couldn't use the dishwasher, and instead of using the large isolating bottle to keep coffee warm we simply used it to carry water up from the workshop.

Here's a great video about Holons. Go watch it as long as it's there. Basically it condenses the most important wisdom from Sex, Ecology, Spirituality, so with 50 minutes (and you can skip parts if you find them boring) you can skip reading a thousand pages.

I sit here at my desk, quiet, tears still dripping from my eyes. Just a few seconds ago, my face was tense and my body filled with sadness. Not because something sad happened in that moment, but because I chose to experience this emotion.

It's funny, I thought, that this is something that usually only actors can do.

I want to apologize for one thing. Looking back at the past weeks I have to question my motives. While the distance between myself and my body and mind has increased, their desires and apprehensions are still strong.