The more I go outside, the more I realize that my mood always gets better afterwords. I've been stuck in the house for too many hours everyday.

• I get very little stimulation when I'm in the house all day.
• And I get very little exposure to sunlight, especially during the cold seasons.

This makes me more prone to getting severely depressed.

I start to think, maybe I am really like those orcas in captivity...

• These killer whales need stimulation, but they are deprived from it.
• All they do are repetitive activities like perform stupid tricks.
• And they even had food kept away from them unless they do what they are told
• Unsurprisingly, the orcas fell into despair. And this often cost them their lives.

That kind of life is very depressing and painful.

So because I'm like an orca, I am meant to roam freely and do what I want. This freedom fuels my energy and vitalizes my body.

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My depression tells me: “Doom is inevitable, there's no hope for me to get a job that I'm comfortable with, nor will I achieve my dreams. I will eventually fall into poverty or worse homelessness.”

My mania tells me: “Everything is going to be aright! Don't worry about the bad things happening in the world. You are energetic and healthy, and I guarantee you will achieve your wildest dreams!”

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I have to keep reminding myself that neither of them are right 100%, because the truth is more complicated. I need to be aware of the realities I'm living in right now – both good and bad – while still holding my strength and resolve to keep on living. ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ

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