You are having this fear of not knowing anything and everything. And you want to find answers as to why terrible things have been happening to you right now. So you seek sources of information, either from a person, a group, or a piece of media.

You begin to cling these sources of information and interpret them as ‘fact’, as they can appeal to your desire for truth as well as your emotions. You start preaching these ideas to others, and often revolve your entire life to said ideas.

But when those ideologies reveal their flaws and start to affect you in negative ways, you flee from them. And then you’re back to where you were before... not knowing anything and everything.

Now, you start to questions your previous beliefs, and want a new perspective to explain reality ‘better’. You start to consume information of topics such as ‘self-improvement’, ‘religious values’ ‘anarchism’, ‘conspiracy theories’, ‘extremist ideologies’, ‘nihilism’, etc...

You go from one subject or topic to another, yet there’s still no resolution to your questions nor your grim circumstances that propelled you to search for answers in the first place.

When will you find ‘truth’? When will you find ‘happiness’? When will this vicious cycle of not finding answers that you’re seeking end?

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The more I go outside, the more I realize that my mood always gets better afterwords. I've been stuck in the house for too many hours everyday.

• I get very little stimulation when I'm in the house all day.
• And I get very little exposure to sunlight, especially during the cold seasons.

This makes me more prone to getting severely depressed.

I start to think, maybe I am really like those orcas in captivity...

• These killer whales need stimulation, but they are deprived from it.
• All they do are repetitive activities like perform stupid tricks.
• And they even had food kept away from them unless they do what they are told
• Unsurprisingly, the orcas fell into despair. And this often cost them their lives.

That kind of life is very depressing and painful.

So because I'm like an orca, I am meant to roam freely and do what I want. This freedom fuels my energy and vitalizes my body.

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