katelovesorange

its near the end of the day now. i am thinking of what else i have to do. i totally forgot to clean out the aviary today. i have never forgotten to do that. i will have to do it on sat now. i did get dinner made, no muffins though. i still need to make a trip down to the freezer. i just hate the stairs. they are so steep they freak me out.

i did the usual chores and now i am tired again. i tried to renew my magazine but forgot my stupid password. why do you need to sign up to a web site just to renew a magazine. then being as i use it once a year i will forget the password again. why cant i just go straight to the page and renew it. geez talk about making it difficult.

brent says he will do dishes tonight after i go to bed. we shall see. i dont really care dishes are there no matter what.

got a message from work asking if i change my gloves. and i am thinking what kind of stupid question is that of course i change my fucking gloves all the fucking time. the halfwit shadow says to the office i didnt. its like what the fuck. just because you dont see every move i make does not mean i didnt do it. ffs if you are not sure ask me. i am so sick of people thinking i am not doing my job. if that was true my clients would have been complaining along time ago. that email just through my whole day off. i hope i can sleep tonight. my anxiety is way up now. shit... i dont want to go to work tomorrow. i hope she does not show up. i dont want her around me anymore. i feel like i have to show her everytime i change my gloves to prove i have done it. and the little tattle tale wont have anything to say. dam now my jaw is clenched and hurts.... shit. sometimes i really hate my job and the office. seems i cant do anything right anymore. i wear my mask and gloves every day. i get my temperature taken twice a day. i gown up when i am supposed to and yet some halfwit is trying to get me in trouble. she is still on the dam course ffs. i have been working at this job for almost 10 yrs. i will never again do this. i will never again agree to a shadow, ever.

on a happier note i got some trading cards today. was nice happy mail. i need to make up some cards to trade. lots are trading for halloween right now. i am trying to made a few xmas ones. i finished a large teacup one. i might post it on sat. brent still needs to take a picture of it for me. i really like how it turned out. hope someone else likes it too.

i still have a few things left to do. will call it a night and hopfully get some sleep tonight. see you all tomorrow.

its wed and tomorrow is my day off finally. i am very tired and sore right now. i did shopping and errands after work. i picked up my new address labels and i really like how they turned out. i am eager to start using them, but will finish with the old ones first.

i did some photocopying today too. so i have some new ideas for cards ready to go. i started the dragon card and the paint is drying now. i might add a bit of background just to fill it in a bit. its a blue dragon this time. i am finally caught up on my mailing too. i want to start a new tea cup card too. i really like making those and they trade pretty well too.

i thought my shadow was supposed to be with me at work today but no one told me she was not coming again till friday. would have been nice to get an email. sometimes i hate the office. i had a couple of my clients complain to me about another worker today. they said she was not what they are used to in a worker. she was not neat and clean. her hair was very messy and was not polite to them at all. it always surprises me when my clients ask me when i am coming back again. i mean it shouldnt but it does. the only think is they like my work and want me all the time. some of the ladies also like the way i help them shower. they always want me to wash their back several times....not because i didnt do it right but because it feels good.

i am planning on making a few things tomorrow, such as muffins and apple crisp. i got a bag of apples on the discount cart. i dont want to spend all day in the kitchen. i will be back to work on friday and very tired by friday night. i got a few veg for the dehydrator too. wondering if i should put the big pot on for soup. most days i would rather have soup than some big meal. i think i got so tired of making meat and potatoes with my first husband i just dont want to do it anymore. its alot of work and dishes.

one of the most annoying things brent does is when he pours his coffee he makes a mess on the counter and does not clean it up. i just do it but it still pisses me off. i should not have to clean up his coffee off the counter.

well its late and i am tired...so what else is new. see you all tomorrow.

yesterday i was just too tired to write. i kept falling asleep in my chair. so i just went to bed early.

i am just as tired today. i was thinking i should go to bed early again tonight. brent has really stepped up lately . he has been doing alot more work around the house which has helped me alot. it lets me rest up a bit for when i have to do some chores.

got the cages done and the rabbit cage and the litter box. i also got asked for a custom card so will have to start working on that. its for a dragon. i am off this weekend so i should be able to finish it by sunday night.

for the first time ever since i started my job i had a shadow to train and watch me work. she is also taking the psw course. i gave her a chance to see how i work and how crazy the first 3 hours of my day is. not sure what she thought of it when she went home. she will be with me again tomorrow so i guess i will find out.

i sure miss having the energy to do crafting when i come home. i can barely stay awake sometimes when i come home let alone try and make something. i do some of my card work in the morning when i am more rested. i would love to have more time and energy to make some art. seems the day comes and goes and i have done nothing but look at pictures on facebook of other peoples work.

its getting late and i have to work tomorrow. see you all tomorrow...

day is finally over. its after 9 and i need to be in bed soon. i start back to work for 7am. i am not happy about it but nothing i can do right now. i made it through day 1.

i started a new card today and finished another and i have to do a special order as well. so will start on that tomorrow afternoon. i am on split shift tomorrow so i need to keep busy so i dont fall asleep. getting requests for cards is pretty flattering. makes this day not a total loss. will need to get some stamps this week too. i send mostly to the USA. i get alot of amazing cards in return.

well i started this post last night and got distracted and closed my laptop and went to bed with out finishing this. i was tired.

so up this morning at 430 and getting ready for a split shift. its going to be a long and busy day.

later....finished my morning . now home and its time for food and rest.

i did some chores and rested. i started the requested cards too. got my uniform ready for work tomorrow. brent ordered pizza for dinner. first time since last year. was not fond of the pizza but i didnt have to cook it so i ate it anyway.

back from work and time for tea and snack and meds. then bed and back to work tomorrow. see you all tomorrow....

it sure was great to sleep in. now its time for tea and meds and then maybe try and get some more chores done. i also have to check the dehydrator and i have some mushrooms to can now that i have some jars. if i feel up to it cut up some veg for the freezer as well.

i still feel sad about my friend not coming over. i will make my muffins anyway and i am sure brent will enjoy many of them. my plan is to also have some time for art today. some days i seem to put myself last. i have to stop doing that. when i do that i get very tired and cranky. some days i really resent having to give all my good energy to my job and i have nothing left when i come home. i dont think people relize when you have fibro like alot of people do that giving all your energy can tap you out for a long time. tomorrow i start the 6 day run and by the end i am nothing but a zombie.

later... muffins are made...and they turned out great and as i predicted brent took some to “work”. i have been trying to do some organizing but somehow i seem to be making a bigger mess. i have no idea how that happens. i am also trying to clear off my tv tray table to i can put my laptop back on it. i am about half way i think. so i am making progress i think.

i also got a message from work. i am going to have a shadow on mon wed and fri. yippie. i rearrange the list to suit the client needs. everyone gets done and everyone is happy. i think that is what counts the most. i also asked the office if i would loose hours and they said no. i will hold them to that one. i also asked them to make sure the new person be there at 645 at the latest for sign in. so i am hoping she is on time.

i got a few cards started today too. its the drying time that takes so long. when the cards are drying i wonder off and do some other things. i still have more chores to get done...but i am not going to rush as i am on my day off.

so far pain is moderate today. level i can live with. i am also not over heated and sweating like a pig, so all in all a decent day. got as much done as i could and i will leave it at that.

see you all tomorrow....

i am finally home after work and errands. feels good to not be moving. i have a whole list of chores to be done but i am watching my show first and relaxing for an hour. then i am going to fill the drawers of the new storage unit i bought and move the rabbit cage to the back room. i think he will be ok back there with the birds. then my chair area wont be so cluttered with supplies and tools. i might also be a little more organized, maybe.

i am on a med to high pain level today. so i am also hoping the pain pill kicks in fast. i have lots to do. i need to try and clear off the table too. my friend is coming over for tea tomorrow and i want to have a place to sit and visit. i want to make some muffins too. i was thinking of making lemon cranberry. i was going to use the lemon curd i canned a few weeks ago.

speaking of canning. when i was out doing errands looking for other things i found some jars. i am pretty happy and now i have some back up in case i find some more things to can. i found some veg today on the discount cart. some i will dry , some i will freeze and some i will keep in the frig.

time to start chores....bbl. ok first big chore done, the aviary. next comes clearing off the table. i should be able to get most of it cleared off , i hope. my day off tomorrow and i am gonna spend some time on me too. on friday i start my 6 days in a row. there is a show i want to watch tonight too. i am relatively awake now but in a couple of hours who knows.

i may have traded another card today. so far she has not sent her address so the trade is not complete. i posted a new tea cup today, so far no bites on that. i am starting to make some snowflakes and thinking of what i can scale down for xmas trading cards. sometimes i find the small size hard.

i dont know why i get so excited about seeing a friend. she is not coming over now. her husband says no because he thinks i am sick and will make them sick. well if i was sick i would not still be going to work. i am also wondering if its more like i dont like her{me} and you cant go and see her. whatever the reason i am better off not counting on things like that. why do i always feel like i am being rejected.

i will still make the muffins and i will still try and sort and organise some more. i will spend the day doing some small chores and hopfully getting something constructive done.

i am tired and its time for bed....see you all tomorrow

i made it through another day. i finished all my clients early. too bad i cant leave early. the work phone i have has GPS and can follow me everywhere. it sucks. so i just hung around and read my book and drank alot of water.

i mailed out some cards this morning. so finally everything i have been mailing is finally moving out of the mail box and onto the addressee. all i got in the mail today was a bill. goes to show the post office was not working too hard on friday. i was able to spend a bit of time working on a new card today. i also posted a new card so it may or may not be traded today. i think the right card finds the person its ment to go to.

the sun was out today even though it started out raining. the house is comfortable even without the heat on yet. i dont want to turn the heat on yet. its so expensive and feels like i am getting ripped off for it like every other utility these days.

the 4 birds that where supposed to go to a new home, well that didnt happen. the person backed out. kinda ticked me off but what can you do. so i have 4 birds in cages and not sure if i should put them back in the aviary, oh and one surprise baby from my oldest pair.

its late now and time for my shower and meds....see you all tomorrow.

its thanksgiving and another holiday i am working. no surprise really. i seem to get stuck working them all. its also another holiday without talking to the grandkids. wonder if they miss me or ask about me. i really dont know as i have not talked to my kids in over a year. wonder if they miss me.

work was work and i am glad the day is over. i got some more dried weeds from the garden for the rabbit while it was not raining. should last a few months anyway.

i had leftovers for dinner. nothing exciting but its food. i was not hungry but had to eat because i need to take meds. i did not eat much all day. just tried to drink water. its so hot in the building and its only going to get hotter as the days get colder. i would like more soups for dinner but i dont think brent would go for that as it would not have much meat.

i was trying to get another card ready for the mail tonight. kept getting distracting with doing other things, like chores.

i won an item on ebay today too . first time i tried it. my new art supplies should be here in a couple of weeks.

well its that time. bed time and med time....see you all tomorrow.

its late now. its been a quite day. we both made dinner. which took alot of stress off me. a very simple dinner nothing fancy but it worked.

i did some artist trading cards today as well and traded a couple as well. i guess i will be making more tea cup ones this week. they went really fast. some also like the maple leaf cards as well. i did a tree one today that will be in a blind swap. hope she likes it . also looked up artist trading coins as well. they are bigger than i thought. so i worked one up and i kinda like it. it will be in the blind swap as well. sometimes i need a day where i do art. helps me to relax alot. i just miss my desk and office.....sigh. the thing i was trying to do was get all my art stuff upstairs in my office. now some of it is back downstairs and on the table. dont think i will ever win at this game.

i am still trying to get used to being back at work. its hard. i am tired all the time and i hurt. i find it hard to make everyone happy. everyone wants me there an hour ago. i am loosing weight because i am not eating enough because i am afraid of having to go to the bathroom.

i have a letter to write too and i better get at that tomorrow if i have time. seems the cards are being traded as fast as i can make them. its good i guess but hard to keep up at times.

i better get to bed. its time to take meds and set the alarm for 430...see you all tomorrow...

i am back. my laptop crapped out last weekend. so its fixed and i can post again.

not sure how much i can type in one post but will do my best to write something informative. its my weekend off and thanksgiving on monday. i work on monday of course. i never get holidays off. we will be making a nice dinner tomorrow. ham and scalloped potatoes. i think brent will be making the potatoes. i decided against turkey and all that as i could not find one small enough and it will be just us. no real reason to make alot of food.

i am still working on the trading cards i managed to get a couple traded last week. i was using a small tablet. i was hard to see things and remember the steps in how to post to the facebook page. but i got it done and figured out how to do it on my own. pretty amazing i would say. i am working on 2 cards for a blind trade right now. i just hope she will like them. i also have 4 cards to mail out as well. so that will keep me busy the next few days.

work is work. i am tired alot of the time and feel like i am wasting my energy on someone else.

i did some canning today. a few necterines , pineapple and trying apples. i dont have many jars left so i think that is it for now. cant get any new jars till next year.

i am loosing my energy now. its near the end of the day. i fed the birds and cleaned the litter box. i did a load of laundry, my uniforms. i will make a pie in the morning for dinner. i think i will close here for now pick it up tomorrow. i am glad to be back ....see you all tomorrow.