viewI have another (not very close) autistic friend since childhood. He is growing more towards obsessive comparing to when he was a kid. And the more obsessive he is the less I am trusting towards him. Since he will get more moralizing overtime. And unlike obsessive girls, boys often don’t risk to look petty in public or in general. So I never know where I stand. Except making my own guess based on vague moralizing writings of his. It was never a great friendship anyway because the routine was: I made joke – he was neutral – joke didn’t land – I tried to be more normal and not myself.
Anyway, besides my family, I only talk to Khanh and Eta. But mostly to you.
viewOh if you were obsessive, you would have hated me since the first email.
viewNah most people depressive+narcissistic look nothing like you or me. Think of people who blame themselves then feel superior for being deep and tortured. Such a turn-off.
They need double defenses to cover 1 shame. I’m more spread out. I’m depressive about one thing and narcissistic about another.
viewI don’t trust obsessive when they say whey want to give back to open-source community for some reason.
viewI caved in and took antihistamine.
viewNo I didn't have any idol.
Idol culture was very common when I was a teenager, especially among middle-upper class and city kids. The kids were very slow and didn't think of another option where you can listen to someone's music and don't want to know a single detail about their personal life or hear another one of their stupid takes on social issues.
They just called every band/singer you listen to or like as “idol”. Didn't know “idol” implies idealizing a person to the point of an unrealistic image. Sloppy thinking comes from sloppy choice of words.
So yeah, the “older” bit was intentional. Don't know why though. I'm not gonna pretend that it's remotely scientific that age represents wisdom and integrity. Because most people older than me are stupid. But I do like you being older.
viewWestern right-wing boys think Korean right-wing boys are their comrades and share their struggles against wokeness. But Vietnamese girls are already very right-wing and Korean boys rank much much worse in the dating scale here than local boys, even worse than the Chinese. We all know they only look good on TV (and even then their crown prince is not half as handsome as my tutor). But mostly it's their personality problem.
viewCan totally see why right-wing is at the bottom of the dating pool.
The left is respectful to the audience enough to make fake research and cite them like actual logic. The right just simply feels superior over people born different and thinks it’s humor.
viewIt's true. What people said was correct. I wanted to get married when I was 15.
That's not because I had someone specific in mind. And of course, I knew it was a fictional wish and not a realistic one.
I was watching Princess Hours (please don't look it up). And living with an older, tall, handsome boy who helps me study seemed like a great idea with no downsides. It still does.