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Changed my booking successfully. Gonna do it another day.
Changed my booking successfully. Gonna do it another day.
Like any normal person, of course, I already thought about how I could be an idol.
I would be so charming and get a lot of “love”. Until one day, the fans would find out that I have a secret handsome boyfriend. They would also find out that all the songs I wrote were about someone specific all along. They would feel devastated, cheated, and betrayed. Because their narcissistic idealization as a version of “love” can never replace actual bonding and regular sex.
The K-pop industry is very respectful to its audiences' intelligence. The companies would not allow their artists to comment on politics or the basic economics of capitalism. The bonding would largely experienced through the resonance of idealized personality traits. So your love for the music will never be interrupted by their stupid social commentary or virtue signaling. Only them getting married will do.
My body is in a very bad shape right now because I woke up three times last night due to three different nightmares. Also another time I woke up to collect the clothes in the balcony because of the rain. And I even have a full shooting day tomorrow. The softbox is 2m so that reminds me of you when I stand next to it.
I'm going to sleep now. See you later.
Good morning tutor.
Alright, when I said “transference is high school”.
I didn't mean that you reminded me of some guy in high school. There were definitely no handsome boys in high school.
You reminded me of myself in high school.
And this is not an insult on maturity. See, I was the most depressive in high school.
Because junior high was less sad because misery was just starting. And after high school, in college, and when I studied abroad I had some failures in education and communication (I wasn't confident with my speaking skill). So I was more narcissistic to feel less uncertain.
Now that you know someone’s bad writing can make me feel disgusted. Are you curious my impression on yours the first time? I actually already described it on around 19th July 2024. But not on the blog.
Okay deadmau5 is pretty good at sound design.
Anyway. I already told my mom about my “no child policy”. She would then inform the rest of the parents, because that’s how bureaucracy works. So that problem is out of the way. Actually I already told her several years ago. But they were in denial, and only came to term with reality just recently. Their main concern now is just that I live happily with someone who cares for me. Because living alone is a bit dangerous when I’m sick and have to order food delivery.