So everyone has aggression. But when you have more than normal amount of it due to your neurodevelopmental condition, there is more pressure to deny it. Especially when activists really want you to embrace the victimhood. But denying aggression ultimately leads to paranoia. And paranoia leads to alienation. So the whole point of using a positive narrative to gain acceptance might not work to your advantage after all. See how this particular circle vicious itself?
It's funny because I never read any fiction outside of what we were assigned to at school. Except Twilight. But I was 13 and definitely did not read it for the good writing.
You know how when we start learning writing, we tend to insert our own hopes and dreams into something totally inappropriate. So when your classmate started to distribute her debut novel about a strong and courageous female character in a gut-wrenching love triangle, we knew what that meant.
It's like that, but in songwriting. We all at one time tried to write something that sounds remorseful but somehow totally paints us in a good light. Did not work. At least if you read your scripts twice. So, it's kind of insulting to see false apologies become a huge part of pop culture. Now you can only listen to songs about being party animals and doing drugs, not because you agree with the lifestyles, but at least you appreciate their honesty.
♪ We'll fill the metro sky with country air. ♫
It's important to talk about the past, because whatever we do today, will only make sense 10 years later.
So my friend said I should forgive my classmates. And I answered “You can't know love without knowing hate”. Because I was such a cool teenager.
Remember in high school, you brought new problems to yourself every day, gave your parents chances to realize they have different answers to politics and existentialism.
Obsessiveness is half the fun of it.
❤︎ Somewhere out there, someone is just as sick about the whole thing as you ❤︎
It was confusing when you were 10 and told your relatives to get lost for their condescending comments while having constant nightmares about going to prison. Because that's when you realized you didn't care for authority but also smart enough to want a distance from troubles.
Having difficulty managing emotions, prone to meltdowns means I hold affection longer and deeper, but also anger and hate. How does it look in real life? I have the potential to be both a hero and a criminal.
Like, stopping the bully from harassing a girl, which resulted in getting the first death threat for myself. 6th grade was fun. But also, not that great of a person for the whole rap song on the table thing, especially when it wasn't even a real conflict. I mean she made fun of the poor, but I could have just explained to her like a normal person. After all, people gave me plenty of chances to grow up gently.
When we were kids, my sister and I used to argue all the time about how we approached conflicts despite having the same moral values. I accused her of being a coward for not doing the right things. She accused me of being an idiot for not thinking ahead. Luckily we grew up to appreciate our differences so that rarely happens anymore. Because the world would need both kinds of people. And we both learned to have better balance of each trait.
Anyone says their hyperempathy means they are always loving and kind is lying. That's not empathy. That's reaction formation.