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Besides avocado shake, I also like fresh coconut water, and cut fruits in a small bucket mixed with yogurt. I haven’t found any place selling this nearby so I often eat it when I go shopping in the city center.

I also got clumsy and knocked out several cola bottles at the store. So I paid and told the cashier to throw them away. And the lady said, “You don't take them?”. Now why would I drink pure sugar and chemicals? Though I happen to know my college flatmate drank like 2 liters of them per day.

Wish I have knocked out corn milk.

Wore brown corduroy today and a poodle thought I was his friend.

🎼 Thunder, thunDER, THUNDER ♫ (not imagine dragons, this is a lustful song about having a crush)

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So some people can't get over the hurt and the betrayal they start the myth that borderline only split on the people they love the most. Evidence check out, they get along with all their friends and strangers fine.

Borderline saw that narrative was cool, they adopted it to be their official trait too. Maybe it was about love all along. Just like in the songs of The Weeknd. After all, art is all about the human condition. And since it's recorded and widely accepted, it must be the FACT.

Some literature says borderline mistake feelings for facts as they lack mentalizing skills. I don't buy it and think it takes away their agency. My thinking is it's just simply rationalization to stay in the split.

If your friendship conversations are mostly “How are you?” “I'm fine thank you, and you?”, no one is gonna split over that. If you show up with your natural offensive self, they will split on you strangers as hard as they split on their lovers. It actually saves everyone's time. That's why I said, outside of working environments, to find friends or love, just be your normal self is actually the safest.

I went to a movie theater once. I don't want to get charged to hear loud noise and see terrible people by the end of the day when I should relax.

People have a terrible dating process and wonder how their super intelligent, hard-working, dignified people they date become gamblers after a few years of marriage (gossip story from my mom a few days ago). Okay I cut some slack for previous generations where they didn't have much time to think things twice because the bombs and the famines were after their asses. So I just talk about the modern scene.

Also, what's the obsession with “masculinity”? Why they spend so much time defining it is beyond me. If they care that much about precision, they should be worried about the whole dictionary, too.

Which brings us back to the topic of dating, where people show up with certain vibes that they think are working. And somehow people get together that way, and then just keep sharing music, and going to the movies together to the day they get married, without ever knowing each other. And they seem fine with it.

The thing about borderline is you can totally have normal superficial relationship with other people. And actually, it makes you a friendship material in some circles because of the idealization. So a lot of time borderline makes you super popular among large groups of people. They mostly only idealize people whom they have just met.

For spouses and family members, they flip between idealization and devaluation routinely. You can't go into a relationship just by sharing the same taste in art for so long. For us, any meaningful interaction between 2 people would reveal something about one of us, as much as the other. But for borderline, that would also mean their worldview of good and evil has another contradiction.

No I ended up overpaying my friend.

Before capitalism, people had to spend a huge chunk of money to bribe for a job position in a state-owned organization. So when we were kids, my parents said, we had to work extra hard because our parents wouldn't have money for bribery. When I was in high school, it was still bleak that my teacher asked me why I didn't go to medical school. They would assume you would make the same career choices as your parents, because that was what everyone did. For getting a job with a family connection would be much easier.

I don't mind normal people saying about capitalism what they don't understand. My beef is with activists. Most of them use the concept as a prop to make a case about their characters. Often somewhat majestic in their minds. They don't understand that you don't have connections and don't mind working hard, communism is a threat to you.