There is a certain plot in Korean drama where a girl pretends to be a boy for various reasons. Always been interested for I know someone whose parents gave them a boy's name as a joke. Then people find out she is a girl and she has to live with her real identity. Then she wears girls' clothes, suddenly she has to act illogically and be a pushover and now I lose my interest. Because I have 3 dresses and I don't want that to happen to me.
“I already told them that you are not at all like the rumors” – Nga said
I was happy she had a side project.
But thought to myself. If someone interacts with me and decides not to like me, however I feel about them, at least there is some respect. But if they decide to love me or hate me based on someone else's opinions, then I wouldn't want to be friends with them anyway.
Fluctuate between being sad and being evil.
The sheer idea that one does something out of the joyful process of making it seems to offend many. So you have people shaming you for writing but not reading, creating games but not playing them, or drawing but don't care for museums.
Irvin Yalom chatbot says my depressive personality is kicking in today.
Have you heard about the fun fact that just an act of kindness from a stranger can send an autistic person to a meltdown? Because it seems to apply to at least 2 people I know, and one of them is me. Sometimes it happens right in public spaces and you don't know what to do.
When I was 22, I taught this boy the same age but in special education animation. He said I was the best teacher. And I thought it was the most humane interaction I had in years. He was autistic, but I didn't know I was too back then.
♪ I wish that we could sail our sad days away forever in deep blue seas of paper mache ♫
She didn't even mention the name of her crush once. So what's the point of having an encrypted diary anyway.
When I was 15, I wrote an essay on Love and broke the record. My teacher loved it so much, she read it to the entire school and several other schools nearby.
So it was very painful just 3 years later I cut contact with everyone again, even my best friends.
It's hard to explain this because it doesn't seem like a problem for everyone, idealization feels just as dehumanizing as devaluation. But yes, if you were a gifted kid, you might be familiar with the concept. That you are valued, but not as a whole person. Or if you are known as a cool kid for carrying spray paints and drawing graffiti all over school walls, those boys don't actually want to know if you have other hobbies too. Even if there are 1 or 2 people do care about you genuinely, when you live in that environment for too long, you would probably assume they don't value you as much. What you want is not another compliment, but someone curious enough to want to see you for who you are.
It wasn't so much avoidance that I ran the hell out of the country at 20. It was the conclusion that I would never be understood.
People who quickly think you are sophisticated for reading books (but don't know exactly what you read, or who you disagree with, or what you take from those books) are the same people who think you are shallow for dressing fanciful.