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Borderline (Mel, i/o, fat dude) often brags about how they hold the ultimate secret key to the success of dating and lasting relationships. While many of us losers can't find a date in years, let alone transform it to real™.

Some of them already dated > 100 people (i/o, fat dude). Some even do it when consistently in debt (fat dude). Some can keep a marriage for decades with attention and care are just fringe benefits (mel).

The secret is very simple. Just like the opposite sex for their sex (all 3 said on multiple occasions). And they mean, just their sex, as a noun. For example “I like you because you are a man”. Because if you like them for the attention, sex (as a verb), stability or care, you don’t like them for who they are. Since those are all disciplined traits and not innate. That would exclude me. Because I can definitely see myself liking it for the sex (verb). Also, I always thought, the other person would feel even more majestic when I hate their entire sex (noun) but only like them.

Coincidentally, i/o often see people as stereotypes and it’s working for him. While mel thinks not taking shower regularly is a masculine trait and one can achieve progressiveness by integrating a correct amount of femininity with a correct amount of masculinity.

Kind of miss my parents and how one of them defensive with technology, and the other one defensive with the elderly, and how both of them secretly intrusive to my love life.

I'm back.

Packing is so boringggggg. But I'm excited to go back.

I often delete saved memories to make sure the machine doesn't know too much about me. But let's see what it collected today.

I'm struggling to find what I am missing from romantic relationship because I still don't know what's left of a relationship without sex, attention, security, wealth and care, let alone something that would make it real™ . Since I find sex and attention do most of its job already.

But then, attention can mean hanging on to someone’s every word and taking interests in what they do every day. Or it could mean daily “good morning” texts with flowers on holidays. And people who complain about attention being cheap probably choose partners by the latter.

Well I'm in for all the benefits, except childcare.

You hear psychoanalysts describe friends and families and you would think people keep walking around being totally unaware of themselves in real life. How do these people think how others form romantic relationships anyway?

Today was kind of boring. Except when I thought about you.

Hihi. How are you today? We returned the grandma to her home last Sunday so my parents can cook normal food now. They will also buy a lot of good food for me in the last few days before I leave. See you again tomorrow.