viewDisordered people often seek help either right after adolescence when the real world does not meet their expectations. Or after middle age when external resources are not sustainable enough to cure the internal problems. So when people tell boys like this one to be more humble, they can learn the LOOK of it. That will keep them warm for like few more years. The self-help and the pseudo-wisdom don't come as unnecessary and lame aesthetic accessories. They are needed for their rationalization. It's the essential. The fact that the culture constantly punishes normal people who say unusual facts as arrogant means I have zero empathy for them when they get fooled by actual disorderly narcissism.
viewSome people say he just needs to write the essay again. He is smart and and can write better. But people can't change their language without changing who they are as a person. It always shows. In fact, he tried very hard at pretending to be humble already. Which is why the narcissism doesn't display just by the sheer showcase of achievements. It displays through the dismissal of authentic human connection to the ordinary.
viewSo the bad college exam is an example of narcissistic writing at the disordered level and not at all healthy pride. People are getting annoyed for good reason even though they don't know how to describe their feelings about it. Might write about the mechanism of it tonight if I have the time, or if I can hold my annoyance that long.
viewMy biggest moral dilemma at work was that the team lead very much liked to tell jokes, everyone laughed out loud, and I didn't find it funny at all. So the dilemma was either hurting his feelings or pretending to laugh. I chose to hurt his feelings every time. It was getting really bad, at one point, he had to explain the jokes to me, out of fear I didn't find the working environment uplifting enough. I found it even harder to pretend to laugh after the explanation. So I didn't.
viewI never understand April 1st. Just because you have an excuse to explain after a prank doesn't make it any funnier. Not that pranks are ever remotely funny to begin with.
viewNow that my biggest secret is out…
viewI'm doing some more reading tomorrow. See you later.