thaison

Morning!

The problem with moralizers is it's a loophole to deny hate when hate arises, and deny personal agency in ethical conflicts.

I'm sure my junior high classmates had all reasonable reasons. Probably like how they spent so much effort to pretend to like me, and I didn't have half the effort to pretend to like them back, therefore morally failed at keeping social harmony, hence deserved to be attacked. What's up with just hating each other because of different lifestyles and going separate ways so no one can bother the other? That would be much less work for everyone!

Moralizers can boast all day about how they are champions of justice and how their rigid morality makes them suffer so much. But when it comes to making actual decisions that might put them at disadvantaged positions, I'm sure they find another set of moral rules that makes them stay with the “abuse” but conveniently aligns with what benefits them the most.

Not saying that being ethical all the time is realistic. But every choice is a trade-off of something. So watching out for the hidden cost might be a smart thing for them to do.

I mean arts people moralize too. I don't hang out with them either. They tend to make it about love and beauty. It sounds more romantic, but is just as lame. Probably would know more if I didn't just go to computer classes and skipped all the museum tours.

Bought a pink raincoat so I can show a different side of me. But only on rainy days.

People think “Oh just don't talk about your accomplishment”, that would cure your arrogance, make you humble, and it's not.

It's easy to change the look of it, but not easy how you actually feel. Most of the time, you want to know that you are still accepted after admitting your faults. Before you can actually do it without feeling the need to throw out some moralizing defense “I know I wasn't supposed to do it”. Or narcissistic defense “♪ It's me, hi I'm the problem ♫” 🤢

“How bold one gets when one is sure of being loved” is correct.

Half an hour doing research on “how to be humble” and still got nothing. All seems too much work for me. I can, however, talk like a robot to avoid emotionally performing tasks. Gonna stick with it until I find a new trick.

Okay that previous deleted one was the dark side talking stemming from my disproportionate aversion to activists and their positivity affirming care. But I stand by most of what I said. Because I was hella annoying as a 15-year-old.

So there is like 1 depressive in STEM and the majority rest are obsessive-compulsive. Maybe that's why I don't hang out with them a lot.

They tend to moralize their feelings away, so someone like me is often seen as badly raised. There is the compulsion from their end wanting me to be a better person where I'm fine with being naughty. And on my end, I think what they believe all looks good on paper.

However, their rigid morality often makes me question whether it's the case that they lack exposure or compassion.

I was invited to a party once. So I know people don't like it when you talk about homework there.

Today's homework is done.