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Goodnight Marten. See you again tomorrow.
Goodnight Marten. See you again tomorrow.
On TV, the characters often have weird dreams they secretly desire and wake up ashamed of themselves. But I always have different faces in my dreams so I don’t feel shame because that probably wasn’t even me.
See you again tomorrow Marten.
Oh the recent book's main character is actually a book. So I included a library number on his back. Guess what those numbers are?
I'm super sleepy today.
I should write about how deflatedly narcissistic boys fit right in with the feminists.
So that girl would say directly to my then “boyfriend” that they were so happy to torture me. And I used the exact word they used, torture. Dude, probably annoyed but reacted nothing. After all, they have some mutual friends.
No, I am not projecting a protective figure that I didn’t have in the past onto my present. I don’t even need actual protection regularly. Mostly because I actively work on the environment so that I don’t have to.
But I thought then, if I had been in his position, I would have told her to get lost and then thrown away any friends who would want to have a relationship with that kind of person. So you can see I didn’t want to date another weasel. It had to be a nonconformist.
Yeah, no, I wasn’t snapping.
In 10th grade, some girls would be extremely nice toward me. They praised me in front of everyone when I was there, but I knew they were also the ones who spread false rumors the most. I didn’t understand why they wouldn't just be apathetic so there would be less work for them. But I knew those girls wanted others to believe that they were nice and friendly.
A few years ago, I wrote a piece about the differences between cognitive empathy and emotional empathy. My writing was fairly objective. I didn’t have autism bias just because activists said autistic emotional empathy was superior. Someone read that and thought I wanted to target them or was suspicious about them somehow. I was just learning about things. I didn’t know about them that much to make any firm opinion. And I would never be passive-aggressive. I would just be openly aggressive if I wanted to. That was a person who spent half a day every day talking about kindness and being helpful and empathetic to other people. They thought about organizing unions and socialism. They wanted others to believe that they were empathetic.
Two days ago with this boy. He didn’t just feel grateful toward the open source community. He was also grateful to everyone who walked into his life. To everyone who might just say hello to him. To every small gesture that might just pull him out of the “dark abyss”. And he made sure that everyone had that “fact” straight.
It is called reaction formation.
I cut off 4 holes in my brand new pretty shirt because I thought those were button holes.
I decided to have a full day off. So I will tell you a new story I have today, because I already forgot yesterday story.