The moment had already bore so much
you needed to add your weight
how harsh you are
how simple
how undeserving
you don't belong here
do you?
Each day in life is amazing. Each day should be revered – it's just hard sometimes. Hard to recognize what we have built or what we live for. Maybe it's because I just finished watching “altered carbon”. So I'm having some existential angst.
Anyway, happy friday. I hope that everyone can relax and take a moment. It's amazing we are all here, at this time together. Considering how massive the timeline is. We are it. All that we get to experience.
I slept today
longer than I should
in my dreams
found a road
I hadn't walked before
It was a moonlight path
In a prairie land
Sand crunchy underneath
Staring up at stars
Falling overhead
Into an aurora
Following the path
walking deeper
into the night
Upon waking
I want this in my life
The best dream I ever had was during a flu. I was running a high fever, in and out of conscience. The dream wasn't anything special. Just me going to locker at a school close to me. I took a seat across from a girl. She was someone I had grown up with. I remember her looking over at me and I took her hand. We stared at each other for a moment and then she faded away.
She called me later that day and said she had seen me in a dream. That she had fallen asleep for a few moments in homeroom.
the turtle
shell exposed
rain pelting
marches forward
brambles
cut feet
streaks of vermilion
marches forward
heat
blooms from Earth
crackles gray skin
marches forward
the lake
relief, tail dancing
playful, happy
swims forward
– endurance
The thing about this year that's been hitting hard has been routine. I would never have minded seeing my kids more. Being inside more. Waiting in long lines. If it had been subtle. But I went from biking into work. Getting coffee. Generally just living out an existence. A boring one. But a routine I had forged. To this.
This break from that mundane routine.
It's been a chance to be still (Even with kids running amuck). To really see what people are willing to sacrifice or not. To see how others, handle their own routine. How we endure.
Hope everyone you know is safe. That you find some stillness. You deserve some respite from 2020.
Most days it gets a brighter
Some days a little dimmer
That's ok
Sometimes it gets torn
Other times, people mend it
When I'm finally gone
I hope to look down
and see others
wearing patches from it
Thought id take one of the poems I was going to put on the writing.exchange fediverse and put it here instead. It didn't feel right letting this one go down the river of the fediverse. It needed a proper home.
Last night was something, at 9pm thunder clapped and rain came pouring down. I rushed outside and proceeded to soak myself. August rain is the best. Especially since it was 97 all day.
The rain never fails to bring back memories of laughter, my honeymoon and times that weren't like what we are in today.
I'm glad it's Friday, it's been a long week of work. Hope you find some time to relax. Enjoy the weekend.