it’s a lie if i say i’m okay it’s bullshit if i tell you everything’s alright i’m in the middle of nowhere everything is blur everything is blunt
“what are you doing?” i’ll definitely say, “i don’t know”
as the lost star i have no place to shine even just to blink
but who are you to complain the gift even just being alive the gift to breathe
so, i’m okay everything is gonna be okay
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nothing’s bright, nothing’s dark all my sights are in ash my footsteps are looking for the ark i wanna be reliable for you for you only you but i can't even rely on myself nor anybody else now i only see brush, i cannot see line i gave my two hands so now i’m no hands standing alone on uncertain land
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love may be a glorious hell youth may be heaven only on the outside still, you are 20 years old coming out of the clouds oh, how special of a being you will be in this vast world?
— Lee Seok-won, The Longest Night We’ve Had (2018)
one step two step three step breath in and out while walking to the lakeside the luminescence reflects on the surface of lake
la luna, it's a full moon tonight one more time, you're holding my hand even in the uncertainty whether i should this or that
oh hay selene, you are like the stella for the astrophil, me let's dance again tonight until we say good bye
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when i saw you in the darkness like a friend waiting with open shoulders the smile never been vague no clock set to curfew
but now you disappear twinkling, glimmering, shining... so unclear are you playing hide and seek without me knowing
no answers for the calls my voice becomes hoarse how many times do i have to shout calling your name like a man need clout
the star has gone when you left after the dawn now nights become colder as you're gone leaving me bewildered
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everything seems blur silence rushes in tick-tock... clock sounds louder every hour
ha... why does every thing feel so wrong? trying to hold on but gets burned all along the harder i scream the more i'm wounded is it really ending? or worse, is this a never-ending sorrow?
someone said, it's okay to loosen up for a moment cry a heart out loud let it go let it go
should i? do i have to? if i let go, will i feel the happiness?
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