as the time goes by
you come and go as you please
bring the joyful heat of summer,
then come as the stormy winter
blow a warm-chilly breeze of spring,
then shake the autumn leaves
like how i cannot control the wind,
i hate that i cannot stop you coming at me
i hate that i love your summer and spring
i hate that i still like your winter and autumn
even if they hurt me
even the part of me miss them, i hate it
the flowing wind passes by
no matter it is warm or cold,
it's just like you
no matter it is gentle or disaster,
it's just like you
and i can't resist it
—
little note:
바·람·처·럼 (re: ba·ram·cheo·reom) means 'like the wind' in korean
rather than asking why,
i should find the answer of how
i should've not run in a circle
of why this, why that
i should stop myself
from blaming anything, or worse
my own self
isn't it better to figure out how
to resolve this
to calm down the noises in head
to find myself again
if i do that,
isn't everything gonna be okay again?
—
this thought about why or how, i got it from my friend's story.
she's in the midst of finding an answer to her problem. when i suggested her to write down everything she wanna tell from her heart and mind, suddenly she said “i should've looked for the answer of how to solve this rather than asked why did they do that to me”.
welp, it hit me hard. so, i thanked her for reminding me too. she's right, it will be much better if we ask ourselves how to this and how to that, to get out from the problem. asking why is good too, but sometimes... “why” itself can lead us to be overthinking and ends up we blaming ourselvesㅡ which is not good, eh. we just run in a circle with no exit door.
so, yeah. have a good day, everyone! hope you find your problem solving~