a bloggy! look at that!

dad did well with surgery. he is healing well

i went grocery shopping today

i also rejoined Insta because i always wind up there when i am bored and look at pictures, so, may as well have an acct

already starting my next budget

#EdX starts October 3 and i am v much so looking forward to it. gonna be dope.

tonight is nice. i had coffee and am feeling p wired at the moment.

also thinking of tattoos

added a “slam/death/something or other metal” band to the Crucifux playlist called “Mental Cruelty” and they are fucking h.e.a.v.y. Great music!

Also, added my Newgrounds acct to oleary.io, so that is p cool.

Be back in a bit!

Not computer science

i am going to drop the #CS50x course. i don't like #CS. This is fine. It isn't for everyone. What I DO like is #writing. It is what I'm best at. So i am going to enroll (at #EdX) in a writing course. And I will concern myself with that. I am doing so tonight.

right now

brb

i don't know why my head is so foggy tonight. Probably because it has been Dog knows how long since i have had a cigarette and i am a p heavy smoker when i do have them and i am not having any fun at all tonight.

That is not totally true, i do have nicotine lozenges and everything else i could want in life, so, it isn't all that bad. The thing i want most thought is for this loan discharge to go through ASAP. As soon as it does, i can hurry up and NOT enroll at STLCC because it has taken too long and it is too late to enroll in the Fall 2018 semester (classes start in a few days ffs). What i can and will do, though, is continue w/ #CS50x and the #EdX trip and get the certification that i am going after right now and build the #app that i wanna build.

good times.

P.S. i promise i will not be repeating myself constantly. i just had to hammer out some words to break up the fogginess in my head. :/

I Like shutupandgo.travel

Seems like a pretty basic concept: take the things you have and go...and...travel. Even if you're broke, just....go! The site/#blog or whatever it is, is run by two (beautiful) people named Damon & Jo and I think I discovered them a couple years ago when I was doing a random YT or Google search for “micro apartment NYC” because, I, like many people, want to live in #NYC one day. The only way I could afford to live in NYC would be to either rent a very small apartment or have a roommate or BOTH! I am hoping the project(s) I put together during & after the #EdX course (#CS50x) that I can actually have a little bit of cash to move to NYC as my lease here in S St Louis County is up in October. I basically have till the end of this month to decide if I am going to put in a 60-day notice that I am going to let my lease run-out, or if I am going to renew it. Either one is fine but having a place to live if/when it does run-out would be a nice thing. Haha.

Anyway, I really like their blog. Dog knows I have everything I need for a nomadic existence (as in, I have v little things. literally everything I own (except a couple pieces of furniture) can fit into a 20L backpack).

So, as I was saying about the project I am doing for the CS50x course – it is a Web #app and I already have a landing page for it (why not?) and I am going to buy the domain soon (why not?) and it is p dog gone simple and I will just charge people to use it, outright. That is the only way I will make $$$ off it because #ads are fucked these days w/ more and more browsers blocking ads (which is a good thing) and also because I hate ads, you hate ads, there is no way I am going to bother running ads. People don't even realize that ads aren't profitable at all unless you are a super-big service, Website, whatever. Charging $$$ for the service is better, IMO.

So there's that

Be back in a bit

That's a God Damn Nightmare

So I am trying (I really am) to submit this gd sprite animation to #EdX and it reallllly doesn't want me to do it. I can't read fucking minds. They want it submitted a certain way, and the only way I could possibly know how to do that, is with proper instructions. I follow those proper instructions and the shit still doesn't work. So............???????????

They could try, idk, a 2018 method like “Here's a Dropbox acct. Click 'Upload File'. Done!” but instead I have to link my GitHub acct (which included me having to d/l Chrome just to jump that hurdle), and then I have to accept invitations to connect to CS50.me, so I do that (even though they said two Invites would be sent, I got 7 of them), I accepted all-possible Invites, I submitted the gd sprite file, and....it won't show up as something that was received.

So here I go a fucking again. Wish me luck!!!

ffs

My First #Pong Game: COMPLETE!

That was pretty cool to make. Turned out well. Saved it to my laptop + scratch.mit.edu but I haven't listed it publicly, yet. I am going to go through all the steps to submit it properly to #EdX and then I suppose I will be done w/ Week 0! #Woot! If I submit by tonight that means I will have everything from Week 0 done within 6 days! #AheadOfSchedule! :D

This was p cool making this because I have never made anything like this before at all. It was mainly drag-&-drop but I understood all of it.

Upwards and onwards!

#Scratch2 #CS50x

Closed Mastodon

fuck that

not going down that road

#socialmedia addiction is a real thing and I am over it

I don't like the #media at ALL, and I am never going to be on social media where people bitch and troll and thirst for attention and validation for hours of their day. Pathetic.

If you're here from a social network (which one, I don't know because I am not sharing this post nor future posts with social media accounts): hello. Glad you're here. I don't like social media but will not discriminate against other for wasting their time. That sounds sarcastic, but seriously – everyone uses social media, so I won't bother giving a fuck if you do, too.

Many people like jumping off the social networking bridge these days, but that doesn't mean I have to be one of them.

Blogging has always, Always, ALWAYS been my jam and I have always done more of it than anything else since I “returned” to the Internet in 2006 after several years away from it. This is all.

The Internet, itself, isn't bad. I take online courses here. I am earning a certificate from #EdX (in programming no less!) from here. I will be doing all my STLCC courses here. I share thoughts from here. If the Internet isn't a tool to improve myself in one way or another, then there is truly no use for it.

I remember back in the mid-90s when people would dream about what the internet could be. It could help us be more productive. It could help us navigate the world around us. It could make us better as a civilization if we could democratize it's usage and make it one, beautiful, egalitarian service that was accessible by anyone. From anywhere. At any time.

Instead, it is pure division, distraction, and hinderance on our progression as a society. People addictively tap, scroll, and wither-away their time and energy on social media. People stopped living and started to try to LOOK like they were living on the WWW. It's corny and crass to quote “The Network” in a post like this but for fucks sake, “You people are the real thing, We are the illusion!”

It's sad and terrible to see what the information superhighway has done to the majority of us. Rarely is it a tool. Rarely do we use it to navigate the world around us. Rarely do we use it to make the world better – either for those people around us or for the Earth's ecosystem itself.

We failed. It failed. We don't deserve it, and we can be better without it.

That's all.

Divine

The coffee was. So, personal update: I need a haircut. I also need to buy smokes tomorrow. I also have to sell my Tab A on CL before that (to afford said smokes and haircut). I also have to do laundry tomorrow. I am hesitant, in fact downright refusing to do any #EdX coursework until I have nicotine because I sometimes get frustrated (naturally) and I will need nicotine to take the edge off....everything.

Also tomorrow dad gets out of the hospital, I may be approved for my loan discharge, the world spins, life continues.

#Awesome

Updated all my Apple I.D. info (FINALLY)

It was a few minutes of my phone constantly going off from PM e-mails + 2FA confirmations, but I got everything updated. All that shit was from like late-2013 but now it is legit :)

I also made some freeshhhh to death coffee and am feeling p good considering I haven't had tobacco in a good deal of time. In fact, I feel very good. And I am giving myself a break from the #EdX lecture tonight because if I hit a snag/get frustrated, I will freak the fuck out when I have no nicotine to console me. LOL!

Now that I have the Apple I.D. shit figured out, I am thinking of other #privacy, #safety, #security measures I can take to protect myself online. I decided that I am only going to d/l #apps from the Mac App Store and not from the “Open Internet” and also, I am being Verrrry careful about WHICH apps I d/l from the App Store, because a lot are bogus as fuck.

So, anyway. Good times

be back in a bit!

Nothing Interesting

At least not from the letter I received in the mail just now. It is from the loan discharge place (which the name of I will keep private) and it basically said it got all of my info/will update me when there is a change in the loan status. I can check this shit on their website so there is no need for them to send me snail mail correspondence again (but I'm p sure they will).

Anyway, I am going to wait for the sun to go down before digging into the #EdX lecture (or maybe dig into it a bit before? idk). I am going to finish it today, for sure. Then move onto the next section of Week 0.

#goodtimes