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Day 18

I slept today longer than I should in my dreams found a road I hadn't walked before

It was a moonlight path In a prairie land Sand crunchy underneath

Staring up at stars Falling overhead Into an aurora

Following the path walking deeper into the night

Upon waking I want this in my life


The best dream I ever had was during a flu. I was running a high fever, in and out of conscience. The dream wasn't anything special. Just me going to locker at a school close to me. I took a seat across from a girl. She was someone I had grown up with. I remember her looking over at me and I took her hand. We stared at each other for a moment and then she faded away.

She called me later that day and said she had seen me in a dream. That she had fallen asleep for a few moments in homeroom.

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Day 17

the turtle shell exposed rain pelting marches forward

brambles cut feet streaks of vermilion marches forward

heat blooms from Earth crackles gray skin marches forward

the lake relief, tail dancing playful, happy swims forward

– endurance


The thing about this year that's been hitting hard has been routine. I would never have minded seeing my kids more. Being inside more. Waiting in long lines. If it had been subtle. But I went from biking into work. Getting coffee. Generally just living out an existence. A boring one. But a routine I had forged. To this.

This break from that mundane routine.

It's been a chance to be still (Even with kids running amuck). To really see what people are willing to sacrifice or not. To see how others, handle their own routine. How we endure.

Hope everyone you know is safe. That you find some stillness. You deserve some respite from 2020.

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Day 16

Electricity woven into murky clouds needles threaded white light sewn to Earth

She sat on the curb The summer heat Surrenders to rainfall

The umbrella sits limply on her shoulders legs stretched out

Smoke from the cigarette Flows out then expunged A muted gray

She sighs Picks up her book Letting the day go


Looks like it's going to be another fun day in the pod. This summer has gone by so quick and I know that im harping. For what it's worth, I thought it went pretty well. Didn't get to do very much camping because our state spiked mid July. But still, it could have been worse

Day 15

Love is a worn out flannel shirt

Most days it gets a brighter Some days a little dimmer That's ok

Sometimes it gets torn Other times, people mend it When I'm finally gone

I hope to look down and see others wearing patches from it


Thought id take one of the poems I was going to put on the writing.exchange fediverse and put it here instead. It didn't feel right letting this one go down the river of the fediverse. It needed a proper home.

Last night was something, at 9pm thunder clapped and rain came pouring down. I rushed outside and proceeded to soak myself. August rain is the best. Especially since it was 97 all day.

The rain never fails to bring back memories of laughter, my honeymoon and times that weren't like what we are in today.

I'm glad it's Friday, it's been a long week of work. Hope you find some time to relax. Enjoy the weekend.

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Day 14

S t o p

For a few moments, please

Begin anew again
again
again again

Ting's and whistles

n o i s e

From deep inside, a river swells

Im being pulled face down eyes open this is wonderful

To drown this way with all of you is a privilege


Nothing to report. Just another day. Reading Uzumaki by Junji Ito.

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Day 13

We drag our friends Growling, they spat, coughed and bleed leaving trails of scarlet in our wake

Each crunch of my footfalls Brought us closer to the river

The disease moved slowly creeping like a cancer Many fell to the dark sleep my friends, cursed awake forever

I haven't dreamt.. yet.. my sanity holds The friends I found however are not so lucky

They hate us, As I watch the madness in their eyes This is the toll of not sleeping Binding itself tighter to their souls

We drag our friends Closer to the river to sleep


I finished listening to the podcast “The Edge of Sleep”. Really was hoping for a few more episodes to tie up some loose ends. Unfortunately I that didn't happen. That said, I was really impressed with the overall feel of the series. I enjoyed the characters and the audio was amazing.

Not to spoil anything but a scene played out with the voice actors retelling a b-rated horror flick from the 80's. It was amazing. Reminded me of seeing the movie “critters” for the first time.

You know that feeling? Where you want to be scared but how can you? A giant ball of cute death coming your way. Priceless.

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Day 12

Iridescent red sheening clouds Murky smoke smothering white vapor The wall of colors waiver Wind mixing fire and air

Far away I can see the landscape changing The green and browns become scorch Paths walked in a cool spring morning Flames Dancing beneath Crimson summer sun


I ended up taking a day off yesterday. Had that moment. In the morning. Where I looked up at the ceiling and was .. not .. having it.

I had thought about writing. But nah, ended up working on the yard.

Being inside, almost exclusively, I hadn't realized. Just how smokey it has gotten in the mountains. It reminded me of fires in the mid 2000's. When my wife's family had been evacuated and they had come to my beach rental.

When I had woken up ( and snuck around all the fam ), ash was falling. The sunrise had a brilliant scarlet sun. It was surreal.

Sitting with coffee. Smoking a cig. Watching the world burn.

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Day 11

The early morning air crisp, sweet and mellow Rushing through the car

Travelling the interstate Towards the fairgrounds My stomach growling

The parking lot The line The gate

Then finally The fair


In the summer as a kid, I was lucky enough to go to the Del Mar Fair. It was one of a few highlights every summer. My parents were the type who went to all the exhibits first and the rides weren't until the end. Which usually involved endless bitching on my part. That said, now that i've taken my kids once or twice I can appreciate the strategy.

My favorite activity at the fair was that they had these folks that would sell you a geode. That they would then crack and shine for you. I have many fine memories staring at the broken geode on the trip home.

Day 11

The sad thing about each day is watching how they drift away so many hours a draft copy of the days already past by

While sitting here, typing or looking out the window or laying on the ground perspectives feel so worn


Had a great weekend, but this pandemic is starting to get to me. I really didn't think that it would be August and I would still be checking rt.live every day. I didn't think id have to worry so much about neighbors. Or people in stores. Bleh.

Day 10

a seed was born from nothing while the child slept suitable soil was found in dreams germinating from its hosts regret

before long, the strange sapling grew at first upwards than flowing out each limb stretching to new horizons a wave of growth, thriving, brought about

once the tree had settled each leaf and branch shook within her dream she found it a vision of this oak

its shadow was a sunset the first one she'd ever seen the trunk the color of fresh snow radiating a soft sheen

her eyes continued journeying moving over each multicolored leaf she saw in them memories petiole pulsing thief

in a moment she was in the vision near one of the highest branches nestling into the trees crevasse enjoying the shimmery rainbow canvas

She lay there for a time gazing at all she could She held it all and bore it until she understood

Then the oak began to speak gently into her ear “Breathe” it commanded And suddenly she disappeared


Happy Friday everyone, I wish you all a great weekend

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