Elias

It's funny how this whole topic of how to grow and sustain financial wealth, limit risks and losses and use chances and opportunities has influenced my thinking.

Coming back home was a pretty weird feeling. The flat was dirty, nobody seemed to be home, stuff lying around in the kitchen, dozens of black flies flying around, a weird smell and an unbearable heat. Whoever spent their time here had neglected this place.

My 27. Birthday

The week of my 27. birthday was quite a crazy week. Even though I didn't plan a party and was never at the centre of attention I still got pretty exactly what I wanted.

Yesterday I used a fresh cutter knife to remove some grates from holes drilled into aluminium. I used quite a bit of force and it worked quite well until the blade was pointing towards my left thumb.

Mapping out my mind is not an easy task. Often it's scattered, not unified, holds paradoxes as well as different perspectives and drives.

I always thought of astrology as pure superstition and pastime. Then at one point I read about five different types of Taurus, with ascendant Gemini (my own), Leo, Virgo, Libra and Sagittarius. And each description matched with surprising accuracy to me and the four people present.

Last Saturday I legitimately felt as if I don't want to live anymore. Luckily I was still strong enough to know that the only reasonable way to commit suicide would be to time travel back to the point where my parents met and simply mess up their relationship before my mom's pregnancy and my birth. But that's highly hypothetical.

Today I helped Nils move back from Nürnberg to Darmstadt and after dropping him off, driving the transporter back to parking place and listening to “Out of Time” by Blur, somehow a wave of nostalgia hit me.

I find it funny that you wrote that you are not clear on what our “relationship” consists of. To me, this is the only thing that is pretty clear. Right now it still consists of waiting for an answer.