diarist | punker | anarcho-minimalist
I Had a p good idea for a Web service I could create just before I went to bed this AM. lol
I wrote it down so it could actually be made into something, should I decide to go that route. Otherwise the idea is nothing more than just thoughts. But it was a novel, good idea and I have it written down as “rando idea #1”.
I like it a lot, actually. I even have a cute little name for it.
anyway, be back in a bit
I slept for about 3.5 hours
I feel a little better. Well, a lot better, actually, but I am still v groggy :/
Now to start my day (and if a nap is necessary later, I will happily partake). I am not sure what is on the menu for this lovely Saturday but it may involve selling my Tab A to someone who reached out on CL and if I do, I can get a little grocery shopping done. I am not doing the Scratch 2 project until after nightfall (because that is when I like to work on coursework).
Anyway, be back in a bit
On another note:
I have to get some sleep before early-noontime rolls around because the sun is rising right now and though I do not plan on going into the Scratch 2 project until after sunSET tonight, I want to be v well-rested. I did not sleep at all last night simply for the fact that I consumed a shitload of caffeine! LOL! #NoRegrets!
Time to chill tf out though.
Be back in a bit!
So I just cruised the Syllabi for CS50x and it seems that the capstone course is, or final project, is where I actually partake in making a piece of software, myself that “solves a problem in my community, or the world, and that will long outlive the course”. That sounds p damn exciting and I am most certainly going to take that challenge head-on.
It seems very consistent w/ the 2018 goals I just laid out for myself + matches up nicely w/ the #100DaysOfCode thing because I am def going to be doing a lot of it when I am making the final project.
Lucky Number 7
So I made a Realllly good goals list for the remainder of 2018 and I have 7 bullet points on it and I am going to step-by-step, slowly, one step at a time work my way through ALL of them! Pacing myself is the best way I can do things, I decided. I will not list this goals list here (for now) because I believe that this should more or less be a personal thing but as I go through these goals I will be #blogging about every single one of them in-detail here :D
I am p open about everything I do and I don't want to...idk, seem like a snob or some shit. LMAO!
Saved DigitalOcean to my Bookmarks List On Safari
I suppose that is the platform for which I would host the #app that I am building (should it be a Web app (probably won't be)). The goal (longterm) is to make a #mobile app and the deets I have mentioned in a #blog post somewhere on here before, but, I didn't go into much detail (& still won't) only because this is a fairly original, authentic concept and though others have done shit in the same vein, it is not what I am thinking of. If that makes sense? ..................................
Break in the #blog post because I had to get my ideas down on paper (TextEdit) because like many many many people have said before and I will repeat – until you have genuine ideas/plans down on paper, they are just thoughts!
So I am glad I got that all taken care of.
Also took a tip from (many) programmers I have seen in the past who rants and rave about Sublime Text for #writing #code and I am going to use that for my appy app ;)
So this is good. Drawing a lot of inspo, ideas from a lot of diff people around the WWW and I see myself making all of this happen in the months to come. I will be making a legit planner (like the one I have sitting next to me) with clear goals in mind and what I want to accomplish before January 2019. Then maybe I can set a badass NY Resolution with what I have done? idk.
Gotta get my goals down :D
How, How in the Fuck Hell How???
I see all this stuff on the WWW about how people went from cigarettes and crack to salads and kombucha (or something to that effect) and I am sitting here sucking on nicotine lozenges and eating (mostly) fruits and veg and I am still out of shape and feel like shit a lot of the time.
I guess working out truly is the key. It's not a giant priority for me at the moment but damn, maybe I should make it one??? If STLCC Fall 2018 semester falls through, I will def have a slightly diff set of priorities at hand, but...yeah.
I think I could be down w/ walking in the early AM hours (or any hours, really) around this general area of S St Louis County but as far as the gym goes; no. I already missed a payment with them and they wanted me to pay out the ying-yang for two months + a missed payment fee, so, fuck them. I'm not lifting weights w/ off-duty cops, anyway. Haha.
I can commit to working out though. Hardcore if I wanted to. Commitment isn't the issue, it is: “what am I reallllly wanting to do with my life right now?” type of situation. I can only devote my time and energy to so many tasks. There is the “easier” route, which is #coding + #app building + reg exercise (which doesn't really seem like an easy route, but it actually is). Or, I can go the tougher, harder, more difficult, more challenging, more interesting route and stack my chips higher and do everything in my power to pull every string necessary to get into comm college this semester.
On the latter: the whole thing is completely out of my control. I cannot get the loan discharge approved faster than it already is going + I cannot enroll in classes for this semester w/o FAFSA being 110% approved otherwise I will be on the hook for who knows how many hundreds or thousands of dollars (bc #college in America sucks).
Therefore: the former. The “easy” route as I refer to it because I have absolutely everything in my power to make things happen right Now + I am actively making them happen w/ the CS course I am in + plans beyond that. Self-determination + self-motivation is not an issue with me. I can do just about whatever (including exercise which is the most important thing w/ taking the former route, I suppose).
Seeing as I would have EXACTLY one week to hustle all the paperwork (FAFSA) if I got approved on Mon morning, THIS Monday, I am still thinking a deadline will not be met. Not for the classes, themselves (there is no issue there), but paying for them is the issue.
What I am getting at: I am at a crossroads, so to speak. I can hammer in walks everyday and do what I will do everyday anyway (studying CS, coding, blah blah, etc) and just commit to that, wholesale. Or I can hold-out for a possible STLCC Fall 18 run. And to be quite honest, I have everyone in my life barking up my tree to lose weight, get in shape, and start taking better care of myself. So I will do this...
....I will commit myself to the CS50x route + #business modeling-type ideas for the app I wanna build + getting good, long walks in everyday. I plan on doing basically all of that, anyway. But the walks will be big difference in this newfound commitment. And...
....I will let STLCC fall (pardon the pun) where it may and not give a fuck about enrolling in Fall 2018 semester because once this loan discharge gets approved, that will be a blessing onto itself because that will simply mean I will not have to pay that $$$ back regardless of whether I go back to college or not.
So this is where I stand.
Fuck.
I just realized that today is Sat and that means a whole 2 days before I hear back about the loan discharge. And even then, it isn't guaranteed that they will have reached a decision by then :((((
I will have plenty of other stuff to do in the meantime though, but still #blows
I Puked My Guts Out
That's what happens when you eat a whopping meal of “not-food”. Rehydrated potato flakes + bread w/ a large dash of herbs and spices is NOT what I would call sustenance. In fact, it was disgusting. I had it bc I felt I needed some carbs (as I am a #vegetarian) and I was running low on energy/high on caffeine, but all the “meal” did was ruin my stomach and make me vomit :(
Sorry if that grosses anyone out.
But anyway, I feel a lot the fuck better now, and I am going to be awake the rest of the night because I still got the shakes from too much caffeine + I wasn't tired at all to begin with when the night crept in. I slept heart last night, so, I am not worried at all.
I will sleep before the Scratch 2 project though. That is for sure.
Fuck
Now I am getting Mastodon notifications on my phone through Chrome because I didn't close down the litebytes acct on Mastodon. idgaf. up it will stay