diary

re-doing the #budget

so i decided that since i had all sorts of shit scribbled down on my budget and that i had a lot of things written in the margins, i would just go ahead and start over. So i did. I now have things exactly where i want them to be and when it comes to buy anything (whatever it is that i may or may not buy, i may save the $$$), then nothing will be pre-decided. #goodtimes

As for this evening, there was a pretty steady warm rain here in STL and it was friggin' beautiful and now i have the sliding glass door open and i am enjoying the (cooled-off) #stlwx and a brilliant sunset. Really enjoying this evening. I also had a p good noodles dinner, so....happy :)

be back in a bit!

i spent a great deal of the day thinking about primitive technologies/survivalism, and i am not sure why

i mean, these things interest me (as you can see from earliers blog post), but, there are usually a great many other things concerning me throughout the day.

makes no difference

on another note, i am unable to drink anymore coffee today because i have already had four cups and now caffeine does basically nothing. I built up a “temporary tolerance” to it, so to speak.

that, too, makes no difference

Therapy has been scheduled for Wednesday and i pick up the $$$ for that sesh tomorrow. Sometime around noon.

Twitter has been moving slow as fuck today, and that is p annoying because i want people to actually use the service instead of just having accts and never tweeting. I think it is a psychological thing that when you put it to them, they couldn't possibly give up a social network, but, when it comes to actually using that network, they are MIA. idgaf what people do or do not do w/ their time, but i find some people entertaining and i wish they would....KEEP being entertaining.

whatever

be back in a bit

i am reading about anarcho-primitivism

Not because i think it is something that sounds “neat”, but rather something i have been drawn to for a long time and am just now finding the terminology and philosophy behind the whole damn....concept. I woke up and downloaded the Wikipedia app and as soon as i did, i decided i would go down a pleasant clickhole of learning about anything and everything that captured my interests on the service. I started w/ looking up “anarcho” and seeing what was suggested within the search bar. Anarcho-primitivism caught my eye (as i have been looking at a lot of primitive, Brutal Black Project tattoos recently), and i come to realize (after reading most of the entry) that I had great sympathies for anarcho-primitivism. Now, i did write “Newer Systems” in Littered Thoughts (which is a great intro to Direct-Democracy, should anyone be interested in reading it (litteredthoughts.info)), but, I spend a lot of time thinking about the “back-to-the-land” concept that some people practice, as well as permaculture, survivalism, and things of that nature, as well. It could possibly be a Utopian dream (or nightmare, depending on the person) to go back to a more primitive style of living. And it wouldn't be easy (or even possible) for some to survive in such conditions, but, “rewilding” sounds like a terrific life(style) if you ask me.

On prepping I do not like most “preppers”. I see many of them (the majority of them somewhat wealthy) attempting to “out-smart” Mother Nature by buying all the trending pocket knives, and learning a fucking bow-drill, and (sometimes) adopting new survival skills. The majority of them just want to make believe they are in the Army, and run around in the woods playing G.I. Joe all day and pretend like they will defend America's freedom (which America has little freedom in these times) by the manner of...whateverthefuck it is they spend their time doing. There is nothing wrong with survival skills (though most preppers do not possess them), and there is nothing wrong with a bug-out bag (though most preppers have too many things in them/never really end up carrying them), and there is nothing wrong with learning about self-reliance (though most live in cities and don't know how to feed themselves without a corner bodega). What preppers fail to conceive/realize, is that if a natural disaster were to strike, and they were forced to “survive”; there would be no “shelter” or “MacBook” or “apps” or “Netflix” or any of these things that they fail to (psychologically) give up simply because they find them all to convenient/pleasant. The mere idea that we would have any type of electricity or electronics is preposterous (in my view) should the fucking oceans swallow the coasts which is a distinct possibility with global warming.

So, moving on....

I will have more to say in a bit.

fuckyeahItalianbread

dot tumblr dot com (is a new #blog i created)

it is the brainchild of my boredom

i am going to update it when i get super-bored

it won't be about Italian bread (always)

but the Italian bread i had today was really tasty and i am glad i have a lot left over

i had a cup of damn bold coffee just now so i am not totally bored atm, but no promises for later

i am going to make more coffee

be back in a bit

ho-hum budgeting

i make out (several drafts) of a #budget every so often, and this one is looking p good. i don't owe anyone any $$$ (other than a $20 spot to the moms) and i have VERY low bills this cycle, too (sleeping w/ the AC ftw!). So everything is looking good and i even added into the budget the wool blanket that i need and still come out looking good. anyway, this si what i am focusing on right now. #hooray

NOW i am doing a blog post!

i was tied-down to my phone a little bit ago and there is no possible way to #blog from there because the browser is busted, or something. Anyway, i am having the second cup of coffee for the night and it is raining outside and all is well in this corner of the universe. Another thing i have been babbling about on Twitter is that i am re-thinking the idea of getting (yet another) tattoo this week. The thing is; tattoos can be addicting and after this ink it would be “just another one, just another one” and so on. That shit gets old p quick, esp when YOU (I) get older. Instead of being a silly/neurotic addict of tattoos, i can use my brain power/time/money/resources/etc for other things.

I can focus on how i am going to fire Kevin, for example. I cannot stand that booger-eating skeleton of a twerp. I am srsly gonna cuss him out if i ever have to lay eyes on him again so i think (am p sure) this week i will get a new person on my case (or whatever it is called).

On another note: i think i am going to pay for some Web services (that i need) this week. e.g. Write.as Pro, a domain for another site i own (that needs a decent name), and then re:Charged (the newsletter or whatever that is) is going to be charged ($4) to my debit card again, so i will just say “fuck it” and pay for the whole year, i suppose. Same w/ ProtonMail because i would like to keep a Pro acct w/ them, and don't wanna pay $5 a month or whatever it is, so, i will just pay for the year. I do not use e-mail, at all, but PM is the way to go if I am to use e-mail, and also e-mail is more or less necessary for certain things on the Internet. I just never check it.

That's about it

Be back in a bit!

i had a good day at the 'rents

cleaned the fuck out of the back sunroom windows, moved a few things around, picked up some supplies for my apt, all is good. now i am chillin' as the sun sets and gonna make a (small) dinner tonight and...yeah. #goodtimes

i am also thinking about how cool (and painful) the tattoo i am getting next Friday will be. Gonna cost abt $250, is my guess. I will have more than enough. Up until next Friday i have nada on my calendar, so, could possibly be a quite boring week :/:/:/

that's all for now

be back in a bit!

Stairs Hate Me

I went up and down a flight of stairs several times in a row earlier today to remove garbage from my apartment and the mini-workout fucking killed my back! I was already shaky and had my heart pounding out of my chest from two Monster + a cup of #coffee and then then stairs COMPLETELY took it out of me. Sucks. I have recovered now and offed the rest of the mangos and am feeling much better. Thank you.

Now, i am waiting for this small rainstorm to arrive so it can cool things off so i can walk to the store and get more “durable/longer-lasting” foodskee for the house. The stuff i have now will last, but there are a few other things i need.

Anyway, be back in a bit!

Oh one more thing; I have been looking for a GOOD wool sweater for the winter as i plan on having just one instead of several like i have now, and i found a co called “Varg” (cool name) that is Scandinavian w/ the sickest shirt i have ever seen! It costs $175 but i will (eventually) invest in it because it will be the sole longsleeve i own when the weather gets cooler. I will forgo the Under Armour bit, and just stick w/ actual shirts (or, shirt, singular) for winter time. + the M-65 military coat, of course.