a shot flew from my pens body
ejaculating soggy paper
blazing towards it target
hitting, she – my target, squealed like a pig slapped on the rump
falling back into the bus seat
confident of my stealth
I took a breathe
then giggled
that was until
my older sister walked over
eyes boring into mine
so scared, that I never saw the fist
until I had fallen over
my jaw a little looser
My breathe slowed, then stopped
My eyes were open, now they are not
My hands holding a book, the book is on the floor
My life was on and now, now it is off
Through unopened eyes I saw him
or I should say felt
I felt a thrumming through lifeless body
Following the thrum
I could see through feeling
Before me was a small man
wearing a black olive lab coat
looking down at a chart
“help” I began, words not leaving my dead mouth
but still, the small mans hand raised
to quiet me
the room was melting
was melting from the ground
in particles of dancing color
slowly they swallowed
everything I remembered
around me until finally
i was hovering in the dark
and the small man hand came down
he stowed the chart in his pocket
and he looked up
his eyes were empty dark pools
that looked like lightning
swimming in rain storm
opening his arms to me
I felt compelled, I couldn't fight it
I lurch from my chair
feeling like a rock biter in a baron desert
every step
labored
weak
Until, finally, I gather strength
before the ivory monolith
inside, my life and salvation
give me time
to be thankful
that's all I can say
give me time
to take everything
we've done
and hold those moments close
to enjoy the tears
the bitter misunderstandings
the
im happy for you
im so happy
but the memories
wont leave right now
so I wanted to say thanks
but
give me time
at the end of it all
thats all we really have
its all i can say..
how we
are now
is what we should be.
is no longer any matter.
since you passed away
through smiling eyes
ill always remember
that back then you stood a little taller
that I was a little shorter
but
deep in those memories
that I keep close
those moments in life
that terrify me the most
are the ones where i forget you
memories
those diamonds shimmering
when i never even call
they are here and are with me
before I asked them to appear
how i miss you so much
and I never ever thought you'd go
I never thought you could
a permanence – now
just streaked blood
I try so hard to never care
and you always knew how
to look at me and stare
to look at me and hold my head in your hand
without words, we had understanding
that this world wasn't made for us
but we could
at least stand before the ocean
and watch the waves come in
when all this is done for me
I hope we can play again
I hope you can find me
a forest of trees stretch to the sky like a finale of fireworks
playing out over time in infinite variation
branches grow,
leaves recast from
green to yellow to brown
exploring the world as elder tree stars
before finally falling
to Earth
year after
year
after year
hey, you don't
have to listen
but
when I cut dreams in half
I let those images
that are freed
within grow
I don't see the foreground
I see the afterglow
and all i'm thinking
is love...
what a beautiful asterisk.
choice is what is choosing you
that husk of decision is what's wrecking you
words are not surface tension
and love is not something from some other dimension
its right here when we sit close together
that radiates from out our eyes in glowing attraction
hey?
I bet you saw it
that
love is a wonderful asterisk
keep those feelings so close
that they burn
feel them cover your body
and in a turn
they should melt and be felt by you
those lovely pieces
that weave
that don't quite fit
did you ever see something like this