Elias

There is this strange conflict residing within me which is that I enjoy being around people but I want to be able to be alone whenever I want.

And even if I am able to leave I sometimes find it hard to find the right moment.

I think the EU has great potential.

I believe that people from different countries can learn from each other.

Almost two weeks ago I had a bike accident. I was afraid to write about it because I didn't know what would come next in my exploration of pain.

Today I carried a 120 x 240 x 1 cm OSB board from a pile in the hardware store to the trailer on the car, grabbing it from the middle of both long edges and lifting it over my head. While doing that a splinter poked into the skin of my right palm.

In a way, the year 2021 started earlier for me. I cut that shitty 2020 short.

Today my boss wanted me to repeat an analysis that I had done on a 1/5 scale model on the computer with the full scale model he had sent me.

Today I made an ugly mistake. I took the careless working style a bit too far. I was widening a hole on a small 3D-printed part with a 12 mm drill on the drill press and held the piece only with my left hand.

I lived in Darmstadt for six years – unbelievable – and now I've been away for almost six months for the first time. I've rarely thought about Darmstadt during this time, but if I do think about Darmstadt, I realize how much I appreciate it.

I just remembered how I visited and explored Bilbao last year. I have some marks left in Google Maps to remember where I parked my car, and together with the old city center they form an almost perfect pentagon.

It's as if I tried to walk into the city from as many different angles as possible within my two very brief overnight visits.

Two days ago I pinched part of my right index finger between the handles of pliers while losing grip over a servo. Immediately a subdermal bleeding caused a pea-sized blister that hurt and limited the use of my right hand.