Elias

some of my thoughts and notes

In the depth of the winter darkness, just a few days after the winter Solstice in the northern hemisphere, we have a sweet Full Moon in the sign of Cancer.

This Full Moon is also referred to as the “Cold Moon” as it takes place at the depths of darkness, our shortest days and coldest days of the year. This is a time of deep reflection, no matter where on earth we live. It’s an opportune time to [take stock of the previous 12 months] and look forward to what we want to create next year.

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Exactly six months ago, on the 21.06.23, I was starting to prepare the things I would pack on my journey to Bratislava.

Packing I was also browsing through my box with little cards with quotes on them:

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Spiel' mehr. Hab' Spaß. Genieß' Dein Leben. Du lebst es nur einmal. Du allein entscheidest, was in Deinem Leben wichtig ist.

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Again and again I have this feeling on Mondays...

That I'm not good enough for this work that I'm trying to do, that I don't enjoy this work enough to be good enough at it. And after some hours, listening to some music in order to tune out the voices of my colleagues, I eventually get into the flow of doing things, of writing something, of measuring something, coming up with new ideas, analyzing things... After all the day passes quickly and it's getting dark again and I can see the point in time approach when it's time to get home.

We have to put our joy on self-start rather than push-start. If we need other people to push us to feel joy, we're doomed. We need to be able to self-start our joy, regardless of external circumstances.

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These days are truly crazy.

Just two weeks ago we were visiting Verdens Ende with Ryder. Two days later I started the new job and he went back home.

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I need you in my life and I don't need you in my life. I want you in my life.

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Maybe for most people this is obvious stuff, but for me this was a lot to take in at once. What is love? What is a relationship? Dr. Orion Taraban explains that Love has nothing to do with Relationships and what both of them mean.

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Purpose

Yep, I did it again. This time I got a copy of “Purpose” by Gina Bianchini. I think it's a book that shouldn't be left only to those who decide to buy it.

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There is a frame of thinking that I encountered in the last days that doesn't get out of my head. It's the frame that views dating and relationships as an extension of our free market economy. It feels insane but I can't ignore it. So I want to share my thoughts on it.

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